Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Lasso
Daily Planetary Overview:
The Moon conjunct Chiron will bring the opportunity to realize your hopes and ambitions. Think about what you want to bring into you life, visualize having it, and then be grateful for your blessings. The results will happen later.
Your Horoscope - Today, December 30, 2008
Bask in the sunshine of this day, melly. Focus on the positive aspects of your life and work to expand these energies. There is a great deal of opportunity open to you at this time. The key to honing in this is to stay close to the things that truly bring you the most happiness. The details will work themselves out with almost no effort. Have faith that you will succeed and you will.
For some reason I really like this one. Or at least to me it seems to make sence at least for today especially. It seems that today the brother is in a better mood. For goodness sake he even helped to shovel the snow! So it's a good start. I just want to let all things go now. It's starting to get hard to bare. I really need a new hobby. Something different to do. Something to look forward to. But really with the new year around the corner. Things have not been to shabby. Pretty content after all. From the way things seem right now. Everall it's working out with little to no effort. Except when it comes to matters of the heart. But really, just greatful for even for the fleeting moments. Really can not ask for more. Adding pictures tend to screw things up. Better off just leaving it be.
Forgot one point that was very important that it's too young I just discovered. Not a good sign.
It really isn't meant to be
Monday, December 29, 2008
I Don't Mind
No matter how you cut it, the result will be the same. The end will be the same. Then do I try to protect myself? But it could be freak chance or a sign that it happen to be HKUST as well. More like a sign I should listen to. You have choices, you can be why did I fall in love with you or I'm so sorry but I love you or I got you under my skin. So who you want to be? Nothing lasts forever anyways and thing have a way of never going the way you expect it to or planned. Better just to leave things alone. This too will pass. For now just have to work on keeping them chompers clean.
And what the heck is with the brother's fit? If I didn't know better I would call it male pms. But it's not like I didn't learn my lesson the first time. But it can't be helped that they are greedy.
The door to my heart is open to you
Just a side note, got a message from arse saying been reading old letters. Wierd eh?
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Pass
The holiday has come and gone. It was fun this year except my brother didn't get me anything =_= No matter, there really isn't anything I need or want, but he could have even gotten me a piece of candy or even guy ^^. So for a week in review. Got back from scool for break with one day of rest and then the whirl wind started.
- 12/22 Drove Lu and Jane last minute back to my place for 2 nights. Went to MOA to look around and Lu just wouldn't stop buying me junk. The materialism. I don't know why but it really did upset me that she would feel the need to get me anything. Have to learn to keep my mouth shut and not comment on anything I like. (बुत सोमेतिमेस इ वोंदर इफ आईटी'स सम क्रुएल इन्तेंशन्स इ हवे ठाट इ माय तरी तो मनिपुलाते थे सितुअशन तो तरी तो गेट वहत इ वांट? इ वोर्री अबाउट ठाट. इ रेअल्ली दो, इ ऍम नोट सुर वहत तो दो अबाउट आईटी येत. आईटी मय्बे अ पार्ट ऑफ़ में ठाट इ त्र्येद तो कीप सुप्रेस्सेद. लेट्स से दुरिंग थिस कंद ऑफ़ सीज़न आईटी'स मोरे दिफ्फिकुल्ट तो दो. )
- 12/24 Droped off Lu to pick eh up। Went to dinners, but didn't expect for most people to think eh was gey lol And I though I was the only one that though that ^^ Else is was nice, it was fun. Pigeon got my a finals surival kit thing lol too funny. 20 bucks, AMP, and can't go worng with some chocolate. ( आईटी वास फूं, व्हो क्नोव्स वहत एह थौघ्त ऑफ़ आईटी। फॉर सम रासों रेअल्ली तौच्य फीलिए, मोरे थान उसुअल। बुत इ रेअल्ली दिदं'टी थिंक अन्य्थिंग ऑफ़ आईटी। इ मैं लिखे ठाट विथ मानी पीपुल। थे फीडबैक इ गोत फ्रॉम थे एवेनिंग वास पोतेंतिअल गेय्नेस लोल और अत लीस्ट फेमिने बेहविओर्स। इ गेस आईटी स्टार्टेड अस अ जोके ठाट वे शौल्ड होल्ड हंड्स एंड थें वौल्ड कीप ओं ग्रादिंग फॉर आईटी। एदिकुलिऔस रेअल्ली। आफ्टर थे डिनर वेंट बेक। वास जुस्त नाप्पिंग एंड नेस्ट थिंग इ क्नोव वास बीइंग मोरे और लेस स्नुग्ग्लेद? आईटी वास आक्वर्ड एंड येत कोम्फोर्ताब्ले। आईटी वास अ सतरंगे सेंसेशन। बुत सो क्यूट गे और नोट लोल। आईटी वास अल्सो सतरंगे हाउ इ वौल्ड बे पिच्केद अत एंड हवे अन आर्म अरौंदमें। बुत आईटी'स लिखे ठाट विथ एवेर्योने रेअल्ली। बुत आईटी हर्ट जुस्त तो ड्रीम अ लिटिल ^^) It was interesting.
- 12/26 I ended up staying over at LSF and was turned into a giant hamster lol I can blame that on Lu. With 5 blankets and 5 different choices of drinks? It was fun to be an hamster for a day. The next morning got a call to go to Dr. Kim's place for a potluck and it was fun, food not so tasty. All vegi, but the conservation was good. But it went on for a little too long. Six very long hours। Insain. But didn't notice any husband or kids, maybe she was lonely. Intersting place she had. Nice and cozy. She has good taste. ( एंड दोएस प्लेयिंग फूत्सिए काउंट? लोल नव, जुस्त लिखे तो पिचक ओं में।) After that shin dig, no matter the weather, decided to, or no, more like determined to go home. Although I know it was my bad for being late and I know mom was upset that I didn't call. Or at least I think that was the issue. There's a small chance it maybe for a another reason. So also gave a ride and droped off at a friend's place that was actually near Pigeon. Nice place.
Today got some input from some people and who knew there was such a thing as gey acting people. No matter, it doesn't change anything. Something seemed a miss today. I am not sure what it is. But something feels worng. Since that feeling, things have not been going right. Maybe just need to refresh. But I still do have this odd feeling that something is worng. Just can't put my finger on it. Can't say being cold and having the internet be so slow is helping. And the translation doesn't work either saddly. But a positive point for the day was that I did slightly better than I expected grade wise. I did reach my goal. So it means I have much more to do now. I really for some time thought about what would I do if I didn't make my goal? Hopefully after tomorrow, things will be better. Or even after a shower, I will feel better. There's just something really bothering me right now.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Douche
Why pain yourself. Why put yourself through this when you know very well no one else will know. No one else will care. When it will not matter to anyone. What good will it do. You only pitty yourself. Only try to get attention for your own selfishness. Your own ill will. Please, don't do this to yourself. Don't pain yourself. Especially for someone so fake. Leave yourself open to everyone. Is to be open yet, protected, to free yourself from the anchors of others.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Gives you Hell
So I guess it was the other day I guess. Not sure why I left it out. But I am trying to remember. The day before talking to Arb so it was a Tuesday. Ye, I remember now. The whole laundry feasko. Eh was so tired and pretty much took a off day. But that day was shadowed by poor performance in Estate. But now that I have more or less accepted it. It's time reflect. I really can't blame anyone but it was wierd had the guts to lay on my lap? WTF... Since when can help yourself to something like that? How wierd. But then again they all seem to be that way. It wasn't a late night. But not sure why I wasn't feeling the grove at all that day. I am sure I do recall a cupon about a free pizza. But made it sound like it was paid for. But I really was in no mood to eat. Rediculous why someone would not eat except for me when I am not feeling well. It's funny how quickly time passes. It's already almost 7pm and I still feel like I have nothing done. Well really I did get pretty much most of my paper done, but I guess I owe that part back in Atwood this morning. But it was funny how plowed through the text for frequency answer. It was either b. or d. And the answer was d. so I win =P
There's a meeting in a few, and I wonder how it will turn out? I know all I can do is my part. But I wonder overall how it will be. Will I end up there for some hours and drag it on? But we do only have the room for an hour. So lets get cleaned up and get it taken care of.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Time Wasted
Save me, I am really drawning in Rain.
I will give you hell
I really didn't expect things to end up like the way they did. How it get to this point. It's funny. But back to basics, I do enjoy the company. On some wierd level we do get a long. But it maybe all a dilusion. It's something I will live with. But be mindful. We have fun, or least I do. I am greatful. Thank you, even to arse, especially to arse. If it wasn't for it, I really don't know things could even have a chance to turn out like they did. Thanks You.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Disaster in the Making
Monday, December 15, 2008
Still Raining
- Estate homework done.
- Then is churn out a paper for mgmt
I know there's not much I can do for insur now, it's utterly hopeless. But I can still try for Estate and the rest. This like before can not stop me from trying. I know the feeling of hopelessness can be overwhelming. Speaking of overwhelming, bumed into ike today. Actually spoke a few words. Nothing too exciting. Though the hair is getting a little too mop like and becoming a .. well you know ^^ Not so attractive. But meh.
After looking at this and capturing this moment, somehow I feel much better. So instead of churning out mgmt paper, I churned out some cards. I guess it's better to get them all out soon than later when you may not have a chance to. So econ was more or less to be expected. But it really was a fluke for someone that had no idea what she was doing. Crazy eh? It was a fun run, but I still have little to no understanding of what was going on. And look what happens when I just try to look for a silly space image and a whole section gets deleted. Sad sad. I was going to talk about this dream, but I have talked about it 3 times already. Well at least I found out the game is called Stardust. And there goes roomy with her instant noodles ^^ emm smells nummies. nom nom. So this dream was like a ship and an plant attached to it and it was like an astroy scene there was shooting down mother ships or something. But in this dream, I don't seem to be very effective and at the same time had to keep an eye on this little plant that was attached to me by some light beam. After that it switched to a scene that was all too familar. The same one with arse in it but this time with eh in it. Same situation where could not get attention because was looking away on computer screen. Maybe it's a sigh of some baggage I have and trying to achieve something I can not have. I have been better at it. The desire none but to give everything. To be poor in a good way. Or at least the way I want to be.
Side of itchy hair. I thought I was going insain but I remember now that I didn't wash the hair for a day. Who knew just one day would much such a difference. Hair overall looks just fine. But I can feel it being so itchy. Maybe I am really that dirty or something. Besides washing hair. I still have:
- mgmt paper to chun out
- estudiar estate
- estudiar mketing
Think that's pretty much for offocial business. And for off the record business:
- more craps to print out but need to add printing cash
- give arse his junks
- send cards
- clean up room
I know I was disapointed last nite. But it's to be expected. But this too will pass.
You may feel sad or lonely today, but it will pass. This aspect will test your inner strength.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Power of Silence
Friday, December 12, 2008
ఇన్ ఒథెర్ వర్డ్స్
ಇ ಗುಎಸ್ಸ್ ಇ ಶಲ್ ಜಸ್ಟ್ ಗೋ ದೊವ್ನ್ ದಿ ಲಿಸ್ಟ್, ವಾಟ್ ಇ ಪಿಕ್ ದೊಎಸ್ನ್'ತ ರಿಯಲಿ ಮತ್ತೆರ್.
ബട്ട് സൊ ഫാര് ഐ സീം ടോ ലൈക് ദ ഫസ്റ്റ് ഓനെ, ദ സെക്കന്റ് ഓനെ രേമിണ്ട്സ് മി ഓഫ് വലിന്റിനെസ് ഡേ
இ ரேஅல்லி பீல் லைக் எஅடிங் செல்லோதிஸ் ஒன் இ டான்'த லைக் அச மச்.
ఐ థింక్ ఐ విల్ గో మాక్ జేల్లో. బట్ సో ఫర్ ఐ లికె హిందీ ది బెస్ట్. ఇట్ హస్ అ మోర్ సెల్టిక్ ఫీల్ తో ఇట్ అండ్ సెకండ్ బి కన్నడ
सो वे हवे अ विन्नेर, थिस फॉर मोरे सीरियस नोट्स, ಅಂಡ್ ದಿಸ್ ಫಾರ್ ಮೊರೆ ಒರ ಲೆಸ್ ಲೆಟ್ಸ್ ಸೆ ^^
I just can't seem to change the title, else it's good
Materialism
Besides that, group was pretty productive. I am feeling less worried. Like everything else it passes. I still need to finish up the talk from yesterday. Other than that, even today I did get a few things done.
After getting home, Linens and Things was 50% off and oh dear there goes all the work I have done. The greed didn't take over so much, but I could feel it there. Materialistic. Materialism like Rainism ^^ emm so good. The temparary satisfaction. But I do feel I have made some progress. I remember when comp craped out on me and I would freak over lossing everything. Yet this time it was different. I was more or less indifferent. The loss was like nothing. I was a wee bit upset that the comp might not start up again, but it did. The lost content didn't matter to me. Given that I have some of it backedup, but most of it was lost. The videos and especially images. All gone. The videos I didn't feel much for, but the images. Took so many years to collect, all gone. I was sad, but not in pain. But everything worked out. Got the comp back up and working.
After the comp fixed, had a chat about memorization. But the bottom line is that around here, memorization proves nothing. Doesn't show you know anything. It's all about application. Any idiot can memorize. I know I still feel and I aknowledge it. The more I know the more I see we are different animals that don't see eye to important things. It makes it easier to bare and let go. Thanks you.
With love and compasion, the door to my heart is open to you.
I also should note that eh did mention getting something, but I really long for nothing. At least I know it can't be anything that could satisfy me, just bring me disapointment. Thus I want nothing.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Ajahn Mosquitoes
The cause of stress: when it gets to heavy to bare, you don't know how to put it down, are afriad to put it down. Nothing to do with amount of work you have.
I don't think I will finish this talk, but it's a good one.
So on a side note, eh called so stressed as usual over communication. Lasted for 20minutes. Not sure how the topic on eating came up, but something about not thinking about eh. And then about not inviting em to eat. Intersting lol. Okay then, I will take you up on it. Show em to be careful what you say, especially around me because I will take you up on it and hold you to your word. So ha. Liar or not, even if so, can make em into not one eventually.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
It's not what you say, but what you do
Today for the most part in a long while I have let it go. I really have. But sometimes I feel like without anything, does like have any meaning or it losses all meaning. But I guess I am trying to still find meaning in myself from within and not look out for meaning. The meaning must come from within.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
In Dung Again..
Saturday, December 6, 2008
It will be done
Thursday, December 4, 2008
I got you Under my Skin
So tired and so hungie, but can not reat. At least not yet. I can't not fail this. I really can not. I need to find a way to get through this. I guess I can try to email classmate. But I won't know unless I try.
But should I? All things are pointing I should try, but then again bump into Nathan and dude in lab working on it. So that jerk jaja. Kick me. Really is something. Anyways it's Ajan Temptation that's what it really is ^^
Don't really feel like writing anything today so we leave it be for today. Night self.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Jerk
Say Jou Say
So randomly get a call from eh. But I am starting to think it was just a random mistaken call. I see no justification for it and if there was, already email the punk and taken care of it. All of wahtever we deal with will all pass. This feeling will not last forever and me sitting there dwelling on it does no good. Meetings I know I do not look forward to, but it really has been so long. It's about time we had one.
Either way it will pass and be done with soon enough. Oh and this morning, I don't know if my eyes decieve me, or maybe it was wishful thinking. But scored awsome on the marketing exam. I am not sure the reason, was it really em or was it I disaplined myself as uncomfortable as it was I tryed. Or was is pure luck?
Meeting was alright, ran into eh in Garvy. But dount everything eh says, but just to take it lightly. But I don't plan to stay so long. Not a problem either way, for there is no solution for it now. All will be clear when the time comes. So no worries.
For now I should..
- Figure out how to do MGMT problems
- Gather info fo credit default swap
- Start outline for last Phil paper
Monday, December 1, 2008
Trust come on Foot, but Leaves on Horse back
NUTS = It's a nagging unfinished tasks. It's true... Goodnight self, tomorrow shall bea good day, very productive. It's all because I want to. Not for you or any other reason other than for myself. Because I am.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Just Push
I really don't feel like working on Eviews now, but I know I really have been putting it off for a long time now. And speak of the Devil. Had an interesting talk with eh. Something about liars. So sia sum is attention to details or sensative? Or maybe it's a wee bit of both. It really is funny how one call changes everything. But do I beleive eh? But do take note that talking to em does tend to go too long. At least longer than expected. *sigh* so do hate what eh does to me, drives me insain.
Good Lessons are Thoughest to Learn
This weekend was Turkey weekend and it truely was a Black Friday. All the disapline and what I have worked for all seemed to go right out the door this weekend. The greed and the need all took over and ran rampant through my life. I could feel it taking a hold of me.. I really need to do a quick reset and calm the mind. I bought so much and to what end? Oh the greed and the wanting of more and more. Ending up buying two pairs of shoes and then a jacket that I really chouldn't have, but did anyways because the need was so strong. Bad bad. When I should be content with what I already have. And that one applys to everything. Including with relactionships of any kind.
I think I need to go decluter for a bit. Everything is tempary, it can never fill the void that's in me. I want to get back to looking for icons and photography again. That was always fun. It was where it all started kind of more or less where the road the Hell started.
I am starting to feel a wee bit better now.
- Thanks.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Awful Drained as a Used Tea Bag
Since last night I have had 3 hours of sleep. So very tired. But somehow things worked out more or less. I am not sure. I mean I know I did miss Phil over talking to Barb, but it was for a very selfish reason. I know it was worng. I don't know what I was trying to get at but I know it was for my own cruel intensions. But maybe that's how things are to be. But not for a class when it's so close. I know I ill end up kicking myself if I missed it over attendance. Had my meeting with Sarah. I knew she was smart but not that smart with a 4.0 gpa omg.. now I feel stupid. At least I got her age right that's she's late 20's and turns out she's 29. So I hit that one. E-board meeting was quick was OTM, then Business Meeting didn't happen because of the 6 CA's getting canned. So that worked out. Then eh called and meh called. Although didn't get eh's paper to look over, did get to talk about issues that I know do bother him. It's all about uncertainity. Need to find a way to reduce it. It's his insercurties that affect me and make me worry. But eh did say I dun have to worry because I'm American. But that has nothing to do with spending how much time in school.
And the things I have to do still. Zero expectations..
- Print out craps
- Churn out graphs
- Research credit default swap
True Love.. and compasion.
Monday, November 24, 2008
True Love
So the weekend passes like every other weeken except this weekend I truely got nothing done. Had eh come over just for a day and spend the day wandering around with em looking for sale items. I actually was hoping that after being around eh, would be able to find more flaws in em and that will be that. But that wasn't the case =.= first thing was eh had the same kitty collection... and have the same freaky taste in wierd things like coats, chocolates, and crystals... so get back and help em move craps to have em flip on the tv to the Discovery channel.. I don't know if I should laugh of cry.
Suddenly I feel like cream cheese.
Beside the point. I will leave things be and watch things in the side like a movie. The negatives I can think of now is the tag switching. But besides that, only to learn more positive things about em... sad sad.
Was just on youtube and it's funny now they got the wide screen thing going now. I got half of the book read. But I need to contatntly remind myself that I love all the same, no more or less, but I need to love myself as well. I can never forget about my self.
Okay, so how is it I am worng as usual? But eh is just stressed about accounting. Really do just need to trust em. Be understanding.
Friday, November 21, 2008
=)
Uriel
Supernatural was good. Oh my smexy angel. He has that cool smothering look that is to die for. But first my ankle is in pain and now left shoulder. I don't know what to do about it. But I feel like I should just cut my losses and pack it up for the day. Get some rest and hopefully tomorrow will be more productive. No, not hopefully. It will be. I will make sure it is.
I really can't be so stingy on the printing. If you really need it then print the crap out. It will all be taken care of. So please get som rest and some peace.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
I'm so Sorry but I Love You
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Peace and Happiness
So I am going to be busy sending email tonite. I just noticed that I don't get any emails on the school email. It's finny. Maybe they got a really good filter. Relax and sit and not try so dam hard to change the world and let it be. I will trust them. I am looking and econ and I don't seem to be getting anywhere.
If I were a Boy
And what am I waiting for? Seems all so useless. But it's not for me to say. And oh I just ador this kitty. Gotta love Disney. Now I am starting to feel physical pain. Who knows what's going on with them all today. Why you must punish yourself? Goodness it's almost 1 again. Guess I would want to go before it gets too late again. Oh well. You know what? If it mattered, I wouldn't be in this situation.
If I were a boy, wouldn't it be nice. Just think about myself. Be selfish for once. No matter what you but yourself through no one else would know or care. You are only punishing yourself. Head is really itchy, really gotta wash it.
I am really done playing. Please let me go.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Delusional
A delusion is commonly defined as a fixed false belief and is used in everyday language to describe a belief that is either false, fanciful or derived from deception.
Karma will get the bastard. It's the one of the few things that keeps me going. Or will it get me first? XD
I was just looking at the next Econ assignment and it looks like a tough one. I mean there are so many parts that I think this one should be worth a lot oh points. I feel cold and yet warm.
Today I think for the most part I got Estate done. And I just finished up Phil. I leave it in Gods hands now what happens to it. I think I really did try this time to put some effort into it. But somehow I feel as though I am still lacking. I do feel tired. Maybe it's a chance to take some rest. But taking breaks do help. Gives me a new perspective on things. But this week seems so long. It actually is.
It's funny how I was seeking the phone and tomorrow it mentions it. We shall see. The weekend I fear. But it should be fine. It will be here soon enough and you can worry about it then. It all comes soon enough. Care about the things that are here already before you pass you by as well. I am kind of sad that the phone is chiped. I must be careful. Cherish when it was whole.
Cruel Intensions; Nutter
I can't say I like the pop beat for Mirotic. Anyways, at least they are pleasent to look at. Goodness they look so good. But other than that, the day doesn't look too well. I so need a smoothie to sooth things today. I feel like I should go quick grab one but I know I can't drink in Phil. And then after Phil I want to peep at the BCIS talk. Oh what to do. Decesion decession decesions.
I want a netherball. I'm not sure what it is, but something a hermit crab would live in. I needed to listen to decesions again because I wans't sure what to do about em. But it gave me a clear answer. But I want to make sure I do it right or properly. I will continue this at a latter moment.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Ajahn Beef, Because I Can
It's funny I feel as if this has all happened before. Metting ema nd doing this presentation. Or is this all to vivid in my imagination? I am not sure what to make out of it. DBSK has a new don't. Can't say I like the lyrics, but it has this really grovy tune.
Okay it's super offocial. Eh does know freaking everyone and it hit the all mighty 400. You telling me mr busy didn't add them all ye right lol Can't be that possibly popular, can? If so then I need to discover eh secret. We'll see about that.
Eh finally called. I didn't really expect it, but if eh wants to play then we shall play. You can't out play mi =P I rule this game =P I'll show you. You will see. Lesley Roy- Unbeautiful is an interesting song. You know after talking to em it seems the weekend won't be that bad. I maybe able to shop on my own with mummy and even work. How beautiful. See how things just work out seemingly effortlessly.
I am very disapointed about my paper. There's still a chance, but still it's absolutly atrochious. I have time tomorrow to work on it. And I have Estate HW.
"This is me, I am unchangable"
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I want to look good naked
You seem to be always in the right place at the right time and there is no need to feel regret or shame about things that have happened in the past. Turn negative experiences into lessons for a better future. Even though you may not be able to change a certain situation, you can at least change your reaction to the situation.
This is not something of sort I wanted to know. But it reasures me of something. It's something I really beleive in and try to live not just today by it, but of everyday.
Taro:
Whatever you’re trying to do, the High Priestess and the Hermit slow you down and encourage you to take a break from your relentless onward course. Why? So that you can move forward all the more quickly tomorrow! You need to think hard about your approach and reflect on your working methods and relationships. Don’t worry – in the long run you’ll gain from this slowing of the pace...
I really do hope this is true. I do fell really tired of late. I really do want to get things done, but it doesn't seem to be going my way. I will try tonight.
For some reason this picture caught my eye. Maybe because he's really cute XD but can't go worng with a little eye candy. Who knew he's malaysian. He does have a really pretty face. So today got a call from Ian. I do owe him a call. I will call him back tomorrow. And also finally got a responce from one of the malays. Think it's the one I met. Either way. Have so many things to do. Oh what to do first.. So lets list them out...
Econ graphs
Estate Homework
Study for Mkrting
Phil paper 6
Malay powerpoint
Credit Default Swap
Now that they are listed and I can see them. It doesn't look so bad after all. Seems like just minor things. There is more to the list. But these are just the nagging things. And now to put them in order later.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Perfectly Coiffed Hair
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Lay and Lie
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I Will Fix This
Expereince is what you get when you don't get what you wanted.
Brick walls are there to give us a shance to show how badly we want something, they are there to stop the other people.
If your index finger is shorter than your fourth finger, it means you had a lot of testosterone in utero.
Loyalty is a two way street.
You can't get there alone, beleive in good karma.
Tell the truth, Be earnest, Apologize when you screw up, Focus on others, not just yourself.
Don't bail, the best gold is at the bottom of barrels of crap.
Brick wall lets us show out detication, to seperate the ones who don't really want to achieve.
Don't complain, just work harder.
Be good at something, it makes you valuable
Find the best in everyone, no matter how long you have to wait.
Be prepared. Luck is preparation meets opportunity.
So I watched the Last Lecture. It was interesting. It had some slow parts. But overall not bad. I kinda expected something more out of it. But I went away from it with some good points. I don't feel like talking to Lulu today, she's just being nosie.
Today talked to someone today. Someone I didn't really expected for like 40minutes and I was wondering how I was going to use up that hour I had left and there it goes. See how things have a way of taking care of itself. But not like I couldn't roll over thoes minutes either. But I am proud of the way I handled it. I could have turned all jeckel and hyde on it but I am glad I didn't. At least the old me might have. Give them something they don't expect. Give them the last thing they expect and leave them speechless. Don't give them the honor of being what they expect. be the unexpected and catch them off guard. I am full of surprises. It maybe the sweetest kind of revenge. Regret. It's something I wanted at the beginning. It has been in the making for a long time. But it has finally come full circle has it? Has my pacients paid off finally? Has the seeds I planted a long time ago finally becomes something? We shall see. Finally got a real sorry. Made my makeup run. So mean. So what to do? There is nothing to do. At least it's not my concern. I got the global business thing to be more concerned about it more than that. That will work itself out.
Tomorrow I look forward to. I know I have not been eating much. But tomorrow should be fun. Get to go to Target and look for coat with simmy and get to go home. But looking at this Econ and it's not working with me right now. I really can't for the life of me remember how it works. Gosh darn it. Out of all the notebooks I can leave behind I leave the one I need. This is so not good, my back has been hurting and I am not sure from what really. I mean I sit like I usually do. But the pain.. Maybe I really do need to sit up more straight before I really do curel up into a shrimp. And at the same time I am getting really tired. But I am slowly getting stuff done. This global business stuff is really starting to bother me. I mean as of right now I know nothing. Either way it will work itself out. Get some rest self, goodnight.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Spitty
Monday, November 10, 2008
Loveless, Hopeless
Omg these look so good. Makein me so hungie. I am so ready for Christmas. Snickerdoodles should be tasty. The ones at Cub are nummies. But can't say the bee crackers are tasty. Thoes are just bad.
They really add color. It's nice. It's so uncomfortable to type here, but it keeps me warm.. Maybe it will help me to get this done faster. So tired, so tired for now apparent reason. Just dwelling over something I am not doing anything about. Goodnight self.
Are you Pondering what I am Pondering?
I know I am not doing well. Lord help me. Help me find the way again. Less thinking and more doing, pause to ponder and then keep going. Make frequent stops if you need, but never stop moving. So help me God.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Disapointment
I know I have failed you, I know I have let you down. But give me a chance. I know I can do great things for you. Please give me another chance. I will not disapoint you. I promise you that. Help me find the strength to get through this.
Loss
Scary eh? I have once agaon few words to day. Maybe it's because of the cold or the chill in the air. Who knows maybe later there be a renew sense of my surroundings later. For now lets wash it away and rest on it.
Evil
So gey pong likes pink. He's so gey he don't even like boys and keeps insisting on the gey bar.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Spiffy
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Rediculous
Such arragant people. Don't even think or do any research before they spout out stuff. I mean to get it all taken away? What have you lost? You don't even freaking know then how can you say you have lost anything? Investment? You know the dangers of stock and there are no garentees and it could all disapear over night. What has Abama done to you to make you spu such posperious skum. I think I have more than given up on people. I'll just keep to myself but doens't mean I don't love you all unconditionally just as long as none of you get too close, I do bite after all *chomp* I will just admire you from afar and strive to be all I can be in what ever value I see in you. And take away what I can. For now give it a rest. Lets see if you can even get in and out before 2. Goodluck, send lots of love. All very unconditional.
omg that's too funny. I am really starting to think he is really gey he has become a fan of Mark? lolz omfg... really is too funny, you really can't make this stuff up. Just halarious. Oh well. It's all good, goodnight my dear.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Mirotic
And omg Ashely, the one from UMD and really liked King Author, omg.. she really has ballooned up. What the heck. It's hard to say what happened. And that suddenly reminds me of Nikki, wonder how she is doing. But for the life of me I can't remember her last name. Oh well who knows maybe it will come to me. Omg I love this song. Okay so now it doens't help that my back is starting to hurt now. But soon it be all over, but I want to get at least the concept down so the rest of the time will be pure memorization and recognition. But the math part I need to understand it above anything else. So the phone issue. Well either tomorrow I figure out something is deathly worng, or I chew him out lol So either way it's going to be fine. Rain has such a boyish look this time around. It's the boyish haircut. Either way, strive to be like them. Oh well I do kinda feel better that I did finish phill, but not disguession. So maybe I should finish that up first. Or now. Oh ick lolz bump into a fuglie pict of oh ickies, it's a sign to get off lol But anyways, got some what disgussion finished or at least done for today. Just so fuglie and that's not only the wrose part, even more fuglie inside and out. Funny enough ice_is_hot is not that bad from that angle. Oh dear I don't like what it has to say about tomorrow how I won't get much done.
Anyways I got a feeling won't be showing up for class. After all this isn't a class that's worth showing up for. Either way I don't have time this week to play note taker. At least not till after wednessday aka doomsday. Well seee how far I get. I don't like what I am doing, but so many things right now are bothering me especially not getting econ done. I want to try to dance like DBSK, thoes moves it is possible to follow along since they do so many live shows.
For now lets try to get some rest just like oh my goodness XD Get some rest self, no one will take care of you so you must take care of yourself and give yourself what you need at the same time punish yourself, to teach and train. I have been dealing with him much better now days. If it's anything important, there are ways, it all depends on how badly you want it. So one more time and it's time to go. They are just nice to look at and to play with. Anything else will just cause you to stry from the path. I have already strayed, so I need to get back on track my dear.
Phone I will see if it's a sign or maybe there really is a problem. I haven't been here for this long in a long time. I am just troubled today. Hopefully things be better in the morning, sleep well.Sunday, November 2, 2008
Tummie
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Hate
Lets consider what I have to do, I should at least ..
Bring mgmt back text and all so I can figure out old test answer and thoes answers won't matter if I don't get the answers right on the next one. So lets do that.
The two FIRE classes I have more than enough to study off the notes.
Finish the marketing surveys. For some reason today I been spelling marketing with a g. weird.
Do outline and Phil paper 5 with discussion.
I really want to visit kitty this week. I miss the little bugger. It's all such a delacate balance.
It's all really taking a toll on me, really testing and driving my pacients to the limit. Oh god tell me what am I to do? I really do need a sign now. Is this a test my my temptation? I can tell you he's really a turn off. If that's what should happen I can tell you it's working. He's an arsehole. No wonder he has no friends. I can see why.
Oh ye I almost forgot that I have some pumpkins to chop up to get it all out of me. Maybe it will do me some good to do some choppin. November chopin that is XD I will figure it out, have faith. May I be guided. Thanks for trying. And oh ye, yay finally some airtime minutes, thankies =) I am greatful.
Shiets
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Bored
But before I start on that, I want to reflect on that LSF seems like a waste of time. The guys are not that nummies either way and I got stuck with you know who. I really do need my time alone. But either way, I know I can make sure of the time and choice that I am given. It really is all people stuck in their dung. I am so tempted to try to pull them out of their dung, but I know it's all futile. they want to be there, they choose to be there. I know you are kind and soft hearted, I know you want the best for them and want them to be well. I try to reach out to them, but they push me away. So I let it be. I can't turn a blind eye. I know what is going on. I can not deny it. And things seem wierd. It's really him going adding them all. What kind of person does that? It's attention freak. Maybe it's a test. No different than the other, than the first. It all really does seems like a test. It is wishful thinking. You want them to be a certain way and are ignoring all the signs. Like I said before, there are qualities I admire in him. But seeing how he's handling failure really deters me. I think I am better off sticking with my own way. It seems okay. I did try it his way and failed miserably. I can try it in a modified approach, but it didn't seem to work well either. I think it's always running around in my head. And when it doesn't go as expected, the disapointment sets in. I am better off this way. I mean today good news I saw my fav pointy A in my paper. It has been a long time old friend. I do need to take my own path. I will accept his answer. Acceptance is the way. I don't want to live life as in a fast car watching things go by quickly. As much as I don't like the answer just like the grade, I will accept it and move on. I can take no for an answer. I can and I will. I will find something better, but to see the beauty in someone. Maybe I shouldn't give up so easily. I want them to see how beautiful they are, how wonderful they are and how important they are to someone and to value themselves. But he did tell me to go kill myself =.= So maybe it's not such a good thing. Oh well leave it be. BEcause it so so tragic and so painful, you don't want to leave. It's so difficult to leave when you have been there for a long time and are use to it for so long.
I seem so ill willed sometimes. I am trying to manipulate the situation to get what I want. And when I don't get what I want, I revert back to what I was. I really don't want to go back there. I really don't want to. Everyone seems so fake. It's not like I am any better. But I jsut don't want to be like them. It's hard to find someone you want to be like. I only see what I don't want to be. And they are not always right. Just stuborn people.
Stillness. I'm a beautiful person, I'm a beautiful person, oh shit I'm not. haha It takes so long to convince people that they are alright. But is that my job to? We have this force of inadicuatecy, it's okay to accept it. Selfesteam to parise in ones self. You have a garden, if you water the weeds, it's what grows and takes over the garden. If you water the flowers, the fows grow and take over. it's what you water and focus on. Temperance.
Really think today is a good day for a movie. Even the msn scope saids so. Hopefully find some inspiration in it to guide me. Taylor Swift I was never a big fan of hers, but it's nice Love Story. You think any of it can it ever be true for anyone? Such a fairytale if it ever existed. It's okay to dream, learn to let it all go. No expectation, I do it not for anyone but just because I am.