Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Why always look so stressed out? I did pretty well yesterday with getting things done. Hopefully today will be better. And you think you can give me more work and not pay me? WFT? You both can go to hell for suggesting it and not doing squat.
Apathy, opposite of love is not giving a damn... http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Apathy
It so hurts and bothersom between there. I don't even know where the bump comes from. It's so irritating. I need to put something on it. I so want some meat and cheese. I really don't care at this point. I am just cold again. Hopefully they end up paying someone for the site. I don't care either way. I have lost interest in this. Starting to feel indifferent. My eyes are dry from all the AC constantly being on. The thing is stupid and messed up. The messages all semed to stop at the same time. The suspecion will always be there. I get comfort in hoping they find something they are happy with. But I can't expect myself to be happy in the mean time. I just can't fully trust and it leads to other optential issues. For now, lets work on myself. On a side not lost my SSN card. It sucks. No one is to blame, but I was sure upset. Have to jump though some hoops and some things to worry about on the side. It is what it is. The bump is rather ajitating and compounded with the cold really doesn't help. Because if my reaction yesterday, I was a hour late. I must always keep my cool, so slip ups like that don't happen.
-Cream bump
-Paint nail
-Toss arrange cloths
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Bitter Sweet Memories
The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intensions
Cherish everything even if you don't possess it
How many times can I break till I shatter
The door to my heart is open to you
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Sorry Doesn't Cut It
Well at least for now it looks like I got it all formated. The spacebar is still rather sticky. I still find myself addicted to makeup. There always seems to be something on sale. I have like all these bumps on the side of me face that I can't get over. They are now starting to burn. I am not sure why they are there or what for. They are sure bothersome.
Oh... I see now, so only gets food for himself and his buddie and leaves me out because I am less of a person right? Great! Men are selfish creatures. You don't get a single serving and expect to share. Can't count on them. You got to look out for yourself. And that's what I am going to do. I do have an issue with unable to hear when others are speaking. It's like what you say? Is my hearing that bad or they are all mumblie? Maybe it is me. I should really keep my hands off my face. It's really not good for it and now it's still bruning. Anyways, so I have given up on this end. Listening to other people's issues makes me sad in a way I don't have the same issues. I mean who wouldn't want to pound this? And I happen to find the one that doesn't. There are other issues besides the ones behind the backdoor. Wonder if I should drop this and let work on the more pressing ones. You just can't assume people will do things right away. I have to go out of my way. I am not sure if painting my nails are a good thing. It is too distracting.
Lets not get soo emotional now. It's not good for your skin either.
Fak
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
White Castle...http://www.whitecastle.com/promotions/saversacksfb/coupon
lookup location
Necklace...http://deal.netaya.com/index.php?id=56
White Castle...http://www.whitecastle.com/promotions/saversacksfb/coupon
lookup location
Necklace...http://deal.netaya.com/index.php?id=56
So Cold
Monday, July 26, 2010
I guess I need to be more sensative. No wonder they don't eat, but how one is so fat and the other not? It's a rather strange querry. So not even they know what is going on and wants me to try to figure it out? It just seems like most of the time I am over thinking it all. And then letting the little minor random details slip through the cracks. What to do? Was thinking of zapping more things, but it seems like I should keep it at a min. Can always do the most minimal. I really can't see myself really making a career here. It has gotten to a point where it's too cold . I am really cold here. I don't feel that it's even worth the ffort to dress up even here. The only good thing is that I found my love for Coco Puffs again. They are more sweet and chocolaty than I remember. Should I just stick with the dog food? I have to worry more about what others will thing. I don't think I am meant to work in an office space. I do want to try to seek out a position in childcare and education.
-Stupid mints
-Undershirt
-Change fish
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Perfect pussy... http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/perfect-vagina/
I guess I need to be more sensative. No wonder they don't eat, but how one is so fat and the other not? It's a rather strange querry. So not even they know what is going on and wants me to try to figure it out? It just seems like most of the time I am over thinking it all. And then letting the little minor random details slip through the cracks. What to do? Was thinking of zapping more things, but it seems like I should keep it at a min. Can always do the most minimal. I really can't see myself really making a career here. It has gotten to a point where it's too cold . I am really cold here. I don't feel that it's even worth the ffort to dress up even here. The only good thing is that I found my love for Coco Puffs again. They are more sweet and chocolaty than I remember. Should I just stick with the dog food? I have to worry more about what others will thing. I don't think I am meant to work in an office space. I do want to try to seek out a position in childcare and education.
-Stupid mints
-Undershirt
-Change fish
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Perfect pussy... http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/perfect-vagina/
Space
Friday, July 23, 2010
~The Lookout~
Anne Marie Borne
2473 Black Lake
Spring Park, mn 55384
(952) 471-7200
annemarieborne@hotmail.com
Cliff Simon
4625 County Rd 101
Minnetonka, MN 55345
(952) 908-3801
mobile (612) 270-1451
cliffs@firstmnbank.com
~The Lookout~
Anne Marie Borne
2473 Black Lake
Spring Park, mn 55384
(952) 471-7200
annemarieborne@hotmail.com
Cliff Simon
4625 County Rd 101
Minnetonka, MN 55345
(952) 908-3801
mobile (612) 270-1451
cliffs@firstmnbank.com
The View
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Although writing in here makes it easier to look at the topics and in general easier to look at, the blog makes it easier to look at everything at the same time. So I am not really sure where I want to put things. I guess I can do a little of both. Good God, they ate it all! WTF. And then something caught my eye. I got a feeling I really should really be clearing out.
Schedueling..http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/hnp/csr/1856636942.html
Support is about 550 for 3. So about 200 for each. Is that really enough? So because of this ordeal I once again lose my appatite. But looking at Smashburger does make me want one. Not sure if it's the right time though. Yesterday was tough was well to when things were going do well at the begining. Maybe this isn't the thing for me. So who knows, Lord knows. At the start of service, I was well and perky and then I got distracted. It wasn't a good thing. I really can't be bothered. It's really hard to say. At the same time, I lie aspects of this, but the same time I feel like I am learning nothing for the most part.
Sooner better than later right? Turns out the impending doom was today. Just the thought of it is making my stomach turn. Not like I am too bothered by it. She reminds me of someone that walks with like a crutch. Had the same chest and same grey shirt. I can't reacall what part of school she is from. It's always the good at faking nice people. Even Barb is like that. So many people are good at it. How to get better.
Although writing in here makes it easier to look at the topics and in general easier to look at, the blog makes it easier to look at everything at the same time. So I am not really sure where I want to put things. I guess I can do a little of both. Good God, they ate it all! WTF. And then something caught my eye. I got a feeling I really should really be clearing out.
Schedueling..http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/hnp/csr/1856636942.html
Support is about 550 for 3. So about 200 for each. Is that really enough? So because of this ordeal I once again lose my appatite. But looking at Smashburger does make me want one. Not sure if it's the right time though. Yesterday was tough was well to when things were going do well at the begining. Maybe this isn't the thing for me. So who knows, Lord knows. At the start of service, I was well and perky and then I got distracted. It wasn't a good thing. I really can't be bothered. It's really hard to say. At the same time, I lie aspects of this, but the same time I feel like I am learning nothing for the most part.
Sooner better than later right? Turns out the impending doom was today. Just the thought of it is making my stomach turn. Not like I am too bothered by it. She reminds me of someone that walks with like a crutch. Had the same chest and same grey shirt. I can't reacall what part of school she is from. It's always the good at faking nice people. Even Barb is like that. So many people are good at it. How to get better.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Something New
Well not really. It's more like back to the old ways. I can always add an image later and donker with it. But it's best I do it now, because I have a thing for not looking back. And color makes it easier to read. It takes time though, but it's not like I don't have the time.
Jer just registered for Training Pro, wondering if it's something I should do?
Jer just registered for Training Pro, wondering if it's something I should do?
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
All Looks so Good
Tasty desert images... http://www.delish.com/entertaining-ideas/party-ideas/summer-dessert-recipes?GT1=47009 So today I spent some time updating somethings and the ketboard turned out all sticky like. I have been tring to tear it apart, but it doens't seem to help. Can ask about it later. I spent most of the day looking for housing. It seemed to have helped. Still not really sure what is looking for. Just anything with a price range. I do worry though, but really can't think about it too much not with them androdgnes people. Overall the day not so bad, not even enough time to organize myself. Hopefully later.
Notice
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Good Morning!
I just wanted to follow up with our meeting yesterday. I have a few additional questions.
1. How much does our service cost and how will I know on each deal how much I am making in commission?
Will this be paid per deal or by units?
2. When can I expect a formal offer letter? I am very excited to give notice, but I want to be sure to be professional with a two week notice, which means I would need to give notice today.
I am working on some picture for the ad space. I will let you know by the end of day today if I can find anything.
Also, I am working on a list of buzz words for the ad space.
I sent an email to our HR department to get a detailed account of my health insurance information.
Here are the dates of trips I have planned that I will need time off for:
-August 19th and 20th
-September 16th and 17th
Let me know if there is anything else you need from me.
--
Malia Maley
~Backstabing Weasles~
Aren't they all? I thought for a min how I could help with the back, but then again not. Sidedsma always had a fairly nice voice, Should have known it was him on the phone. But either way, I am back on the not caring route and tired of waiting. I don't seem to be longing for answers anymore. I just don't to care anymore. I can feel myself getting back into this bitter groove. I am starting to wonder if this is the same Tom they keep refferring to that I met? I need to work on getting my act togather first. I shouldn't think too much about the impending doom. It will just distract me from my game. How igrance is really bliss. If I didn't know any of this, how I could just go on day to day. Because I know, I have this knot at the pit of my stomach. The stress is eating away at me. I am starting to feel this isn't right and it isn't going to go anywhere. Met some interesting people and some minor things here and there. Else, nothing too stimulating. The most stimulating has been chasing them hamsters around.
M&M everyday... http://www.mms.com/us/couponsweepstakes/
This just plain sucks, but I got to make the best of my situation. I need to get that res all updated first. And gosh darn it off the phone already.
The things that need to be done..
-Feed fish
-Clear out cabinet
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Good Morning!
I just wanted to follow up with our meeting yesterday. I have a few additional questions.
1. How much does our service cost and how will I know on each deal how much I am making in commission?
Will this be paid per deal or by units?
2. When can I expect a formal offer letter? I am very excited to give notice, but I want to be sure to be professional with a two week notice, which means I would need to give notice today.
I am working on some picture for the ad space. I will let you know by the end of day today if I can find anything.
Also, I am working on a list of buzz words for the ad space.
I sent an email to our HR department to get a detailed account of my health insurance information.
Here are the dates of trips I have planned that I will need time off for:
-August 19th and 20th
-September 16th and 17th
Let me know if there is anything else you need from me.
--
Malia Maley
~Backstabing Weasles~
Aren't they all? I thought for a min how I could help with the back, but then again not. Sidedsma always had a fairly nice voice, Should have known it was him on the phone. But either way, I am back on the not caring route and tired of waiting. I don't seem to be longing for answers anymore. I just don't to care anymore. I can feel myself getting back into this bitter groove. I am starting to wonder if this is the same Tom they keep refferring to that I met? I need to work on getting my act togather first. I shouldn't think too much about the impending doom. It will just distract me from my game. How igrance is really bliss. If I didn't know any of this, how I could just go on day to day. Because I know, I have this knot at the pit of my stomach. The stress is eating away at me. I am starting to feel this isn't right and it isn't going to go anywhere. Met some interesting people and some minor things here and there. Else, nothing too stimulating. The most stimulating has been chasing them hamsters around.
M&M everyday... http://www.mms.com/us/couponsweepstakes/
This just plain sucks, but I got to make the best of my situation. I need to get that res all updated first. And gosh darn it off the phone already.
The things that need to be done..
-Feed fish
-Clear out cabinet
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Impending Doomage
Monday, July 19, 2010
Thank you both for taking the time to interview me this morning. I am very excited about the opportunity as well as the possibilities.
Given my experience, I feel that I am an excellent fit for this position naturally. I feel that this career move will allow me to use my talents, creativity and experience in a way that will help me and your business thrive.
Again, thank you for the time this morning, I am looking forward to hearing from you soon.
--
Malia Maley
612-816-2290
Kim Schmidt [kim@studiokhomestaging.com]
Sounds pretty serious doesn't it? But we shall see if this goes anywhere. Everyone is looking out for themselves. How am I going to eat then? We will see if this goes anywhere.
Wendy Salad... http://moneysavingmom.com/2010/07/wendys-1-off-an-apple-pecan-chicken-salad-coupon.html
Dole Salad..http://saladpromo.dole.com/saladseekers/ zip code 02760
Pulled pork... http://allrecipes.com//Recipe/slow-cooker-pulled-pork/Detail.aspx
Peanut sauce... http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/eating-well/thai-chicken-satay-with-spicy-peanut-sauce-recipe/index.html
Oh the many things to be done today...
-Feed fish
-Toss cloths
-Look over recipe book
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The way we look... http://www.newsweek.com/2010/07/19/poll-how-much-is-beauty-worth-at-work.html?GT1=43002
Not sure if there is much to say, really kind of blowing in the wind at this point. At the same time I don't dare to look and set anything up without being sure. Yet when will I know?
Thank you both for taking the time to interview me this morning. I am very excited about the opportunity as well as the possibilities.
Given my experience, I feel that I am an excellent fit for this position naturally. I feel that this career move will allow me to use my talents, creativity and experience in a way that will help me and your business thrive.
Again, thank you for the time this morning, I am looking forward to hearing from you soon.
--
Malia Maley
612-816-2290
Kim Schmidt [kim@studiokhomestaging.com]
Sounds pretty serious doesn't it? But we shall see if this goes anywhere. Everyone is looking out for themselves. How am I going to eat then? We will see if this goes anywhere.
Wendy Salad... http://moneysavingmom.com/2010/07/wendys-1-off-an-apple-pecan-chicken-salad-coupon.html
Dole Salad..http://saladpromo.dole.com/saladseekers/ zip code 02760
Pulled pork... http://allrecipes.com//Recipe/slow-cooker-pulled-pork/Detail.aspx
Peanut sauce... http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/eating-well/thai-chicken-satay-with-spicy-peanut-sauce-recipe/index.html
Oh the many things to be done today...
-Feed fish
-Toss cloths
-Look over recipe book
-
The way we look... http://www.newsweek.com/2010/07/19/poll-how-much-is-beauty-worth-at-work.html?GT1=43002
Not sure if there is much to say, really kind of blowing in the wind at this point. At the same time I don't dare to look and set anything up without being sure. Yet when will I know?
Chatroulette
Friday, July 16, 2010
http://www.siliconera.com/2010/07/01/cuddly-chibiterasu-can-be-yours/
It's a strange feeling where I don't seem to care anymore. I just need to do what I should be doing. Just doing my job. I am rather hungie. I didn't really snake today.
http://www.siliconera.com/2010/07/01/cuddly-chibiterasu-can-be-yours/
It's a strange feeling where I don't seem to care anymore. I just need to do what I should be doing. Just doing my job. I am rather hungie. I didn't really snake today.
The Search
Thursday, July 15, 2010
http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/hnp/edu/1840133307.html
It's a good time to find something I actually love to do. I love to talk to people and blah blah all day if they wanted to. What are my chances of getting an education job? One thing I am going to miss is Tom, said I was fast and effecient. Which is a good thing and makes me feel better about myself. Good old Tom, litterally, even smells like one, but he's sweet. I wouldn't mind working for him. I am a little bumed about everything but at the same time ever so optimistic.
Scope:
Daily Planetary Overview
The Moon in Virgo conjuncts Mars today, influencing everyone to focus your attention on anything that feels cluttered and messy. Now is the time to clean, organize, and clear away emotional, mental, or physical clutter that may be standing in your way and preventing you from moving forward.
Your Horoscope - Today, July. 15, 2010
You are in need of a mental health day, mel, so why not take it today? You can still check your phone and e-mail messages in order to avoid any guilt about slacking off completely. Meanwhile, you can bring that new box of chocolates into bed with you. You delight in the decadence. This is just what your poor beaten down soul needed!
!Just going to stand there and watch me burn!
Suspecious, hiding in the office.
Thomas D. Johnson
Vice President, Construction Lending
21500 Highway 7
Greenwood, MN 55331
(952) 653-0606 (Office)
(952) 653-0617 (Direct)
(952) 470-3933 (Fax)
http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/hnp/edu/1840133307.html
It's a good time to find something I actually love to do. I love to talk to people and blah blah all day if they wanted to. What are my chances of getting an education job? One thing I am going to miss is Tom, said I was fast and effecient. Which is a good thing and makes me feel better about myself. Good old Tom, litterally, even smells like one, but he's sweet. I wouldn't mind working for him. I am a little bumed about everything but at the same time ever so optimistic.
Scope:
Daily Planetary Overview
The Moon in Virgo conjuncts Mars today, influencing everyone to focus your attention on anything that feels cluttered and messy. Now is the time to clean, organize, and clear away emotional, mental, or physical clutter that may be standing in your way and preventing you from moving forward.
Your Horoscope - Today, July. 15, 2010
You are in need of a mental health day, mel, so why not take it today? You can still check your phone and e-mail messages in order to avoid any guilt about slacking off completely. Meanwhile, you can bring that new box of chocolates into bed with you. You delight in the decadence. This is just what your poor beaten down soul needed!
!Just going to stand there and watch me burn!
Suspecious, hiding in the office.
Thomas D. Johnson
Vice President, Construction Lending
21500 Highway 7
Greenwood, MN 55331
(952) 653-0606 (Office)
(952) 653-0617 (Direct)
(952) 470-3933 (Fax)
Down
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
When you are down to nothing ...God is up to something... if you see someone without a smile, give them one of yours... it might be just what they need to help them make it through the day... Embrace Your Blessings... for no matter how bad it seems.... you are indeed Blessed..... restful sleep... calming dreams...
When you are down to nothing ...God is up to something... if you see someone without a smile, give them one of yours... it might be just what they need to help them make it through the day... Embrace Your Blessings... for no matter how bad it seems.... you are indeed Blessed..... restful sleep... calming dreams...
Bummer
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/hnp/rej/1836589624.html
http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/hnp/mar/1839740963.html
Julia Cordes
Closer
Executive Title
5100 Gamble Dr, Suite 450
St Louis Park, MN 55416
P: 651-503-6223
F: 651-436-2303
A: 763-253-0471
julia@etofmn.com
Ross M. Gabriel
President
1171 Northland Dr. Suite 100
Mendota Heights, MN 55120
Phone: 651.287.8300
Mobile: 952.484.6563
Toll Free: 800.695.1619
Fax: 651.289.2251
The problem is that they maybe have too much relactions with them. But I need to protect myself.
Mortgage Processor / Executive Assitant (Plymouth, MN)
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Date: 2010-07-10, 10:05PM CDT
Reply to: job-3s6j4-1836589624@craigslist.org [Errors when replying to ads?]
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Are you a current mortgage processor or loan originator looking for a change of pace? We are an established local mortgage company with a solid 11 year track record in need of an experienced mortgage processor that can also handle executive assistant duties. This is a high touch customer service driven environment. The environment is professional, fun and challenging all at once. You WON’T be stuck in a cubicle processing 50 files a day. You WILL be processing files for our high net worth clients that need extra special attention as well our average income clients that need just as good of service but on a different level. In addition to processing loan files your down time will consist of executive assistant duties that will include hosting in office gatherings, customer support and a myriad of other duties sure to keep you on your toes. Are you flexible and a quick learner? You will have to be to get this position.
Basic qualifications:
• Calyx Point experience
• FHA/VA/Conventional/Jumbo/Unique Portfolio Products
• Ability to figure income using multiple tax returns (complex self-employed scenarios)
• Knowledge of current RESPA/HVCC/Reg Z guidelines and disclosures
• Great communication skills (verbal and written)
• All other basic processor abilities and knowledge
• Overall proficient office abilities
Send resume and any other applicable information for consideration.
Location: Plymouth, MN
Compensation: Tied level of abilities and experience
Principals only. Recruiters, please don't contact this job poster.
Please, no phone calls about this job!
Please do not contact job poster about other services, products or commercial interests.
PostingID: 1836589624
PR, Marketing and Sales Director - Rollout position (Plymouth, MN)
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Date: 2010-07-12, 7:19PM CDT
Reply to: job-dfy2h-1839740963@craigslist.org [Errors when replying to ads?]
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We have created a brand new position within a new branch in our company and need to find the perfect person to put in place for our August 1st roll out. You won't be bored and this position promises to be challenging and rewarding all at the same time. You will be responsible for PR, Marketing, Customer Service, Sales (direct and B to B) and more on a daily basis. You must be willing to be "the face" of our company as your face will be posted within our marketing pieces throughout the Twin Cities. If you aren't comfortable with this aspect don't bother inquiring. Most of your work will take place within the office but many times you will need to conduct work outside the office so you must have a reliable vehicle.
Basic requirements we are looking for:
• Confident and dynamic personality
• Enthusiastic with high energy
• Positive and professional attitude
• Well put together appearance
• Creative thought process
• Self motivated
• Intelligent and willing to learn
• Money/Results driven
• Excellent empathetic listener
• Great Communicator (verbal and written)
• Overall above average individual (is that too much to ask?!)
Could this could be you? Send whatever you feel you should to get our attention and let us know why you could be the one. It could be any or all of the following: resume, bio, photo, cover letter, references, letter from your Grandmother or anything else you feel will give us a reason to want you to be the one to fill this position.
Your inquiry will be kept private, we won’t contact your references or any employers past or present until after we have reached an agreement with you that we would like to move forward.
This is a full time position so be ready to get to work, have fun and be challenged. We will follow up with those that qualify.
Location: Plymouth, MN
Compensation: Negotiated based on experience and qualifications.
Principals only. Recruiters, please don't contact this job poster.
Please, no phone calls about this job!
Please do not contact job poster about other services, products or commercial interests.
PostingID: 1839740963
Things seems to be moving in a certain direction. I am not sure what or to where.
- Working with customers and loan officers
- Pipeline Management
- Organization
- Microsoft Office Products
- Typing and Data-entry
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I need to look out for myself and invest in myself. I seem disapointed but after yesterdays conservation, I was not surprised. What do they want from me? Do they want more? Since they are looking, I know where this is going. Can it be helped that they are not giving me much to go on. I guess is right. Really maybe carelessness and not high enough standards make things the way it is. Whatever happens, I can make do with it. Does the Lord give us tasks that we can not perform? This all really could work in his favor. We shall see and hopefully this will go the way the Lord wants it to.
July 14, 2010
Tarot reading:
Today you’re placed under the watchful eyes of the Emperor and the World, mel. You dream of finding emotional fulfillment. You’re less interested now in the unknown, in new openings and new encounters. You want to find long-term happiness and stability and even begin to create a home. As far as your emotional life goes, you have everything you could wish for. On the work front, Judgment and the Emperor herald rapid and radical changes that are advantageous to you as you try to turn an ambitious project into reality. You’re greeted with numerous opportunities to develop your plans and to secure the future of your ideas; to think up innovative, but effective, ways of working. You set out the milestones of your future career path with confidence.
Maybe it is really time to turn a new leaf. I am still thinking who I shoud I tell if anyone. So what was the hurry for the affidavit when it just sits there anyways as we wait. No sense at all. It's all just cow pop. I can understand now why when you try to fire someone, you don't give them advance notice. As I sit here on my final days. I can don't blame them for wanting more. More on mysefl for being so hopeful dare I say all to be disapointed and have dreams dashed. Sure is a downer. Even given a chance, for others to say you are not enough.
Taro:
Today you’re placed under the watchful eyes of the Emperor and the World, mel. You dream of finding emotional fulfillment. You’re less interested now in the unknown, in new openings and new encounters. You want to find long-term happiness and stability and even begin to create a home. As far as your emotional life goes, you have everything you could wish for. On the work front, Judgment and the Emperor herald rapid and radical changes that are advantageous to you as you try to turn an ambitious project into reality. You’re greeted with numerous opportunities to develop your plans and to secure the future of your ideas; to think up innovative, but effective, ways of working. You set out the milestones of your future career path with confidence.
Even though I may receive bad news, I am not as sad as I expected. I did meet some interesting people. People I want to be like. I should start taking everything with me now. What I bring to eat, I eat for today. I have more or less confirmed what's going on and I need to prepare myself. It really gets to ya doesn't it?
http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/hnp/rej/1836589624.html
http://minneapolis.craigslist.org/hnp/mar/1839740963.html
Julia Cordes
Closer
Executive Title
5100 Gamble Dr, Suite 450
St Louis Park, MN 55416
P: 651-503-6223
F: 651-436-2303
A: 763-253-0471
julia@etofmn.com
Ross M. Gabriel
President
1171 Northland Dr. Suite 100
Mendota Heights, MN 55120
Phone: 651.287.8300
Mobile: 952.484.6563
Toll Free: 800.695.1619
Fax: 651.289.2251
The problem is that they maybe have too much relactions with them. But I need to protect myself.
Mortgage Processor / Executive Assitant (Plymouth, MN)
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Date: 2010-07-10, 10:05PM CDT
Reply to: job-3s6j4-1836589624@craigslist.org [Errors when replying to ads?]
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Are you a current mortgage processor or loan originator looking for a change of pace? We are an established local mortgage company with a solid 11 year track record in need of an experienced mortgage processor that can also handle executive assistant duties. This is a high touch customer service driven environment. The environment is professional, fun and challenging all at once. You WON’T be stuck in a cubicle processing 50 files a day. You WILL be processing files for our high net worth clients that need extra special attention as well our average income clients that need just as good of service but on a different level. In addition to processing loan files your down time will consist of executive assistant duties that will include hosting in office gatherings, customer support and a myriad of other duties sure to keep you on your toes. Are you flexible and a quick learner? You will have to be to get this position.
Basic qualifications:
• Calyx Point experience
• FHA/VA/Conventional/Jumbo/Unique Portfolio Products
• Ability to figure income using multiple tax returns (complex self-employed scenarios)
• Knowledge of current RESPA/HVCC/Reg Z guidelines and disclosures
• Great communication skills (verbal and written)
• All other basic processor abilities and knowledge
• Overall proficient office abilities
Send resume and any other applicable information for consideration.
Location: Plymouth, MN
Compensation: Tied level of abilities and experience
Principals only. Recruiters, please don't contact this job poster.
Please, no phone calls about this job!
Please do not contact job poster about other services, products or commercial interests.
PostingID: 1836589624
PR, Marketing and Sales Director - Rollout position (Plymouth, MN)
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Date: 2010-07-12, 7:19PM CDT
Reply to: job-dfy2h-1839740963@craigslist.org [Errors when replying to ads?]
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We have created a brand new position within a new branch in our company and need to find the perfect person to put in place for our August 1st roll out. You won't be bored and this position promises to be challenging and rewarding all at the same time. You will be responsible for PR, Marketing, Customer Service, Sales (direct and B to B) and more on a daily basis. You must be willing to be "the face" of our company as your face will be posted within our marketing pieces throughout the Twin Cities. If you aren't comfortable with this aspect don't bother inquiring. Most of your work will take place within the office but many times you will need to conduct work outside the office so you must have a reliable vehicle.
Basic requirements we are looking for:
• Confident and dynamic personality
• Enthusiastic with high energy
• Positive and professional attitude
• Well put together appearance
• Creative thought process
• Self motivated
• Intelligent and willing to learn
• Money/Results driven
• Excellent empathetic listener
• Great Communicator (verbal and written)
• Overall above average individual (is that too much to ask?!)
Could this could be you? Send whatever you feel you should to get our attention and let us know why you could be the one. It could be any or all of the following: resume, bio, photo, cover letter, references, letter from your Grandmother or anything else you feel will give us a reason to want you to be the one to fill this position.
Your inquiry will be kept private, we won’t contact your references or any employers past or present until after we have reached an agreement with you that we would like to move forward.
This is a full time position so be ready to get to work, have fun and be challenged. We will follow up with those that qualify.
Location: Plymouth, MN
Compensation: Negotiated based on experience and qualifications.
Principals only. Recruiters, please don't contact this job poster.
Please, no phone calls about this job!
Please do not contact job poster about other services, products or commercial interests.
PostingID: 1839740963
Things seems to be moving in a certain direction. I am not sure what or to where.
- Working with customers and loan officers
- Pipeline Management
- Organization
- Microsoft Office Products
- Typing and Data-entry
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I need to look out for myself and invest in myself. I seem disapointed but after yesterdays conservation, I was not surprised. What do they want from me? Do they want more? Since they are looking, I know where this is going. Can it be helped that they are not giving me much to go on. I guess is right. Really maybe carelessness and not high enough standards make things the way it is. Whatever happens, I can make do with it. Does the Lord give us tasks that we can not perform? This all really could work in his favor. We shall see and hopefully this will go the way the Lord wants it to.
July 14, 2010
Tarot reading:
Today you’re placed under the watchful eyes of the Emperor and the World, mel. You dream of finding emotional fulfillment. You’re less interested now in the unknown, in new openings and new encounters. You want to find long-term happiness and stability and even begin to create a home. As far as your emotional life goes, you have everything you could wish for. On the work front, Judgment and the Emperor herald rapid and radical changes that are advantageous to you as you try to turn an ambitious project into reality. You’re greeted with numerous opportunities to develop your plans and to secure the future of your ideas; to think up innovative, but effective, ways of working. You set out the milestones of your future career path with confidence.
Maybe it is really time to turn a new leaf. I am still thinking who I shoud I tell if anyone. So what was the hurry for the affidavit when it just sits there anyways as we wait. No sense at all. It's all just cow pop. I can understand now why when you try to fire someone, you don't give them advance notice. As I sit here on my final days. I can don't blame them for wanting more. More on mysefl for being so hopeful dare I say all to be disapointed and have dreams dashed. Sure is a downer. Even given a chance, for others to say you are not enough.
Taro:
Today you’re placed under the watchful eyes of the Emperor and the World, mel. You dream of finding emotional fulfillment. You’re less interested now in the unknown, in new openings and new encounters. You want to find long-term happiness and stability and even begin to create a home. As far as your emotional life goes, you have everything you could wish for. On the work front, Judgment and the Emperor herald rapid and radical changes that are advantageous to you as you try to turn an ambitious project into reality. You’re greeted with numerous opportunities to develop your plans and to secure the future of your ideas; to think up innovative, but effective, ways of working. You set out the milestones of your future career path with confidence.
Even though I may receive bad news, I am not as sad as I expected. I did meet some interesting people. People I want to be like. I should start taking everything with me now. What I bring to eat, I eat for today. I have more or less confirmed what's going on and I need to prepare myself. It really gets to ya doesn't it?
Cold
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Smoothie at B&N... http://printable.couponfeed.net/uploads/2124402-BN.jpg
The ac sure doesn't like to go off. I can't tell with the ham sandwich if it's the olive oil mayo or the bread that's funny tasting. But I figure I should make potato salad and then I can get rid of a good chunck of mayo. I am thinking to be like Jer and have a salad bowl prepared and already mixed? But I fear it will get too soft. I still need to think of a way around it. I think I should just bring in a bowl of salad each time instead of a bag. I found myself suddenly thinking of food today. I miss the old mayo. I want to make more nunu again I think part of it is because last time I didn't really have any.
~Cause for Concern?~
Not like I'm being paid anyways. But should I be concerned that there are resumes? It's not a good sign is it? I should keep an better eye on the printer that's all. If it's what I think it is. Two can't be the only ones. There has to be more to come. I need to find out what's going on. It will still be hard to tell.
Smoothie at B&N... http://printable.couponfeed.net/uploads/2124402-BN.jpg
The ac sure doesn't like to go off. I can't tell with the ham sandwich if it's the olive oil mayo or the bread that's funny tasting. But I figure I should make potato salad and then I can get rid of a good chunck of mayo. I am thinking to be like Jer and have a salad bowl prepared and already mixed? But I fear it will get too soft. I still need to think of a way around it. I think I should just bring in a bowl of salad each time instead of a bag. I found myself suddenly thinking of food today. I miss the old mayo. I want to make more nunu again I think part of it is because last time I didn't really have any.
~Cause for Concern?~
Not like I'm being paid anyways. But should I be concerned that there are resumes? It's not a good sign is it? I should keep an better eye on the printer that's all. If it's what I think it is. Two can't be the only ones. There has to be more to come. I need to find out what's going on. It will still be hard to tell.
Nutty
Monday, July 12, 2010
Pistacio coupon: http://www.getcrackin.com/coupon/
Free mousy pad: http://www.artscow.com/share-coupon/free-mousepad?ref=fbc1456727282
Yet I don't want to be like him and have like a whole stack of papers and not knowing what tod o with them. Everything in moderation I guess unless it was free.
What a jack nut, I should go over there and smack him.
Goodness, he's sure is really stuck up. Anyways, I didn't get much done today. I was kind of busy but most of it was on my own part. Why couldn't I be more careful and not miss so many thing? I figure I answer emails tomorrow so I'll have something to do. Mondays tend to go by quickly after a rush rush weekend. It sure is a slow day for email.
-Check when Time/Entertainment mag expire.
-Toss some junks from home.
Pistacio coupon: http://www.getcrackin.com/coupon/
Free mousy pad: http://www.artscow.com/share-coupon/free-mousepad?ref=fbc1456727282
Yet I don't want to be like him and have like a whole stack of papers and not knowing what tod o with them. Everything in moderation I guess unless it was free.
What a jack nut, I should go over there and smack him.
Goodness, he's sure is really stuck up. Anyways, I didn't get much done today. I was kind of busy but most of it was on my own part. Why couldn't I be more careful and not miss so many thing? I figure I answer emails tomorrow so I'll have something to do. Mondays tend to go by quickly after a rush rush weekend. It sure is a slow day for email.
-Check when Time/Entertainment mag expire.
-Toss some junks from home.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Bloody Murder
Oh Lord, this looks so good. I could sure go for some chips now. Such creamy ranch too. Maybe later. I am not sure why there is so much spacing. I think it's better if I make two copies. I don't want it to look so obvious of what I am doing besdies checking email.~Red River~
It came early this time. Could it be after the prayer? It came early last night after work like 8pm. It really has rarly came so early. Last time it was late and this time early. I bleed fairly heavly this afternoon on my walk to cub for energy drinks.
~Full of It~
It's kind of funny how full of it people hang around other full of it people and are all like that. I mean the mum tunred up and then didn't mention anything.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Man
More things to do. Should be more productive today. Can try to print this out http://print.coupons.com/couponweb/Offers.aspx?pid=15025&zid=cv40&nid=10&varb=50334&bid=alk07080707175b844e53821218 it's a Dove coupon. If not me, for someone you know that lives off this stuff.
Also a snake bag to print out. Though not sure where to get one. http://www.qcfreshdeals.com/facebook/Fan-dibs.jpg
And also pencil offer http://networkedblogs.com/5Bj8n
~How I Wish~
#HowToBeAGoodBF - Easy, be a real man. In control & attentive, secure & sensitive, say what you'll do, do what you say, accept all.
Do not associate with those who always insist upon change"... what do you think it means? It's Prov 24:21
~All the Little Things~
-Pack suckers
-Phish meds
-Dig out shorts
-Wrap zon
-File nails
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I thought about grabbing some tea, but not going to be around tomorrow so that helps to decide when I can grab a drink. I don't really like how the hair feels right now, but it looks alright. And Isaiah Mustafa is sure a masclin name. I am sure I can be an ideal man. I would makea good man. I should be hungie, yet I don't feel much like eating for whatever reason. I don't want to give myself whatever reason to distress about things. I have so much blog updating to do it's not even funny. The date I add it is not that big of a deal, it's just as long as I got the relative date correct.
Also a snake bag to print out. Though not sure where to get one. http://www.qcfreshdeals.com/facebook/Fan-dibs.jpg
And also pencil offer http://networkedblogs.com/5Bj8n
~How I Wish~
#HowToBeAGoodBF - Easy, be a real man. In control & attentive, secure & sensitive, say what you'll do, do what you say, accept all.
Do not associate with those who always insist upon change"... what do you think it means? It's Prov 24:21
~All the Little Things~
-Pack suckers
-Phish meds
-Dig out shorts
-Wrap zon
-File nails
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I thought about grabbing some tea, but not going to be around tomorrow so that helps to decide when I can grab a drink. I don't really like how the hair feels right now, but it looks alright. And Isaiah Mustafa is sure a masclin name. I am sure I can be an ideal man. I would makea good man. I should be hungie, yet I don't feel much like eating for whatever reason. I don't want to give myself whatever reason to distress about things. I have so much blog updating to do it's not even funny. The date I add it is not that big of a deal, it's just as long as I got the relative date correct.
Everything Be Alright
Wednesday, July, 7 2010
~Sneaky~
They sure have a way of sneaking in the subject in. Too salty anyways. It wasn't that bad, yet it wasn't the pasta I was craving for. Many things to do today I think. I'll start listing them off.
-Bring pizza along
-Phish meds
-Reflect weekend
-File nails
-Paint nail
-Refil Skittles
I kind of want to find some yellow nail polish. I am sure that idea will pass. Today the Boston pizza is not sitting well with me. I don't feel like eating anything else. I will be taking back my fair share. I also want to go grab a drink, but I don't have time. I can do that tomorrow. I need to remember to bring the biscots to chon goon as well since none is us really eats them. Is there anything else? There are many things to worry about as the time comes near. I am still struggling if I should go pick or not. I don't think another evening will kill them. Oh I forget to feed them in the morning the good food. Craps. And once again, feeding them a few hours later can't hurt much either. I wish I knew what was going on with them. I don't want to offend them, but not like I am being paid anyways. It's not what was promised to me.
~Sneaky~
They sure have a way of sneaking in the subject in. Too salty anyways. It wasn't that bad, yet it wasn't the pasta I was craving for. Many things to do today I think. I'll start listing them off.
-Bring pizza along
-Phish meds
-Reflect weekend
-File nails
-Paint nail
-Refil Skittles
I kind of want to find some yellow nail polish. I am sure that idea will pass. Today the Boston pizza is not sitting well with me. I don't feel like eating anything else. I will be taking back my fair share. I also want to go grab a drink, but I don't have time. I can do that tomorrow. I need to remember to bring the biscots to chon goon as well since none is us really eats them. Is there anything else? There are many things to worry about as the time comes near. I am still struggling if I should go pick or not. I don't think another evening will kill them. Oh I forget to feed them in the morning the good food. Craps. And once again, feeding them a few hours later can't hurt much either. I wish I knew what was going on with them. I don't want to offend them, but not like I am being paid anyways. It's not what was promised to me.
Better off Not Knowing
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
You kill somebody, we will kill you back.
Didn't get much done today, but the time did pass quickly. It's a good thing. But too bad it's not like this each day. I do have some things to reflect on later in the evening. I need to try to take out the battery on the comp too. I can feel it not being able to hold it's charge as well anymore. And ask what's with a guys infactuation with poll dancing.
You kill somebody, we will kill you back.
Didn't get much done today, but the time did pass quickly. It's a good thing. But too bad it's not like this each day. I do have some things to reflect on later in the evening. I need to try to take out the battery on the comp too. I can feel it not being able to hold it's charge as well anymore. And ask what's with a guys infactuation with poll dancing.
Meetings
Friday, July 2, 2010
It's nice when they have nice long ones. But I am not sure if it's the meetings, but I did find this time to chop off some hair. It does feel nicer. I think I really do need to try to flat iron it in the morning. Gosh darn it, I another pimp poping up and this one more or less hurts too. Not as bad as the other ones. I have some to terms and have attacked the other ones. But this one is on the soft side. So today at the office it works out for the most part. I have to admit they are really good actors. Either way, think I got through the day fairly well.
It's nice when they have nice long ones. But I am not sure if it's the meetings, but I did find this time to chop off some hair. It does feel nicer. I think I really do need to try to flat iron it in the morning. Gosh darn it, I another pimp poping up and this one more or less hurts too. Not as bad as the other ones. I have some to terms and have attacked the other ones. But this one is on the soft side. So today at the office it works out for the most part. I have to admit they are really good actors. Either way, think I got through the day fairly well.
Plop
Thursday, July 1, 2010
That's what I really feel like now. Today I think is going to be more or less a fruit day. I am so craving italian dunkers. I think it's a simple enough thing that I can make on my own.
I just went on a rant that I think went on for at least an hour. After reading another artical about a dram filled unfaithful bf, my head just filled with bitter resentment. But this kept my mind off it for a bit, http://www.chinasmack.com/2010/stories/chinese-women-please-do-not-sleep-with-foreigners.html
I try to calm myself and not to be prissy as things do not go the way I want. Usually after a rant, I just get too tired to care. Like I don't even want to bother with it anymore. It's not worth my time. I am really experience anger and the usualy challenges that usually come along with it.
Okay, so I was just in the bathroom and I hear like a door open outside. I assume it's one of the two, but I pop out just to see one of the cabinate doors ever so slightly open. Could it have opened on it's own? But I need to start thinking what I am going to eat tomorrow. Is that one silly samdmach enough? I still got the apple. I need to remember to take back the trash. I should also grab some doggie food. I am not very hungie now. Through I think I should be. I did have some snakes and lots of watermelona dn a bp baar and some chips. I think that was it.
That's what I really feel like now. Today I think is going to be more or less a fruit day. I am so craving italian dunkers. I think it's a simple enough thing that I can make on my own.
I just went on a rant that I think went on for at least an hour. After reading another artical about a dram filled unfaithful bf, my head just filled with bitter resentment. But this kept my mind off it for a bit, http://www.chinasmack.com/2010/stories/chinese-women-please-do-not-sleep-with-foreigners.html
I try to calm myself and not to be prissy as things do not go the way I want. Usually after a rant, I just get too tired to care. Like I don't even want to bother with it anymore. It's not worth my time. I am really experience anger and the usualy challenges that usually come along with it.
Okay, so I was just in the bathroom and I hear like a door open outside. I assume it's one of the two, but I pop out just to see one of the cabinate doors ever so slightly open. Could it have opened on it's own? But I need to start thinking what I am going to eat tomorrow. Is that one silly samdmach enough? I still got the apple. I need to remember to take back the trash. I should also grab some doggie food. I am not very hungie now. Through I think I should be. I did have some snakes and lots of watermelona dn a bp baar and some chips. I think that was it.
Birth by Sleep
Thursday, July 1, 2010
~Peeved~
I think I will still be like this tomorrow. But it's interesting how someone would go behind my back to take some initiative. Like I said, it's never a good idea to work with people you know. If something goes wrong, who is to blame? The one that suggested it? It's not worth putting your arse on the line. I will come up with a story. Today people seem to be shiting on me for whatever reason. Maybe things are not what they seem. It could be just in my head and my own interpertation. It's a very familar feeling. It's the same issue that keeps coming up. Not sure when it won't be an issue anymore. I don't want to go into specifics because I don't want to think about it. People are greedy. They are driven by money. I am not like them. The longer I am there, the more dark side I see. The irresponsibility. Maybe there is a good reason, but I think it's fair to at leave give an reason or to tell someone, hey, I don't have anything for you yet and keep them update instead of not answering calls and missing appointments. There is little to no respect and consideration to the other people. I see it with Marleen and Ryan. It really pisses me when I see this. I see it with me as well. Just string you along. They want it out of me? Not so easily.
Daily Planetary Overview
The Moon in Pisces is sextile Pluto and opposite Mars today. You may experience anger or challenges from others, but this can be a healing experience if you look for a deeper meaning. Spiritually, there are many opportunities for growth and renewal now if you can stay open and flexible.
Not looking forward to the morning... Either way, will have to go through it. I need to work on updating that blog in the morning.
~Peeved~
I think I will still be like this tomorrow. But it's interesting how someone would go behind my back to take some initiative. Like I said, it's never a good idea to work with people you know. If something goes wrong, who is to blame? The one that suggested it? It's not worth putting your arse on the line. I will come up with a story. Today people seem to be shiting on me for whatever reason. Maybe things are not what they seem. It could be just in my head and my own interpertation. It's a very familar feeling. It's the same issue that keeps coming up. Not sure when it won't be an issue anymore. I don't want to go into specifics because I don't want to think about it. People are greedy. They are driven by money. I am not like them. The longer I am there, the more dark side I see. The irresponsibility. Maybe there is a good reason, but I think it's fair to at leave give an reason or to tell someone, hey, I don't have anything for you yet and keep them update instead of not answering calls and missing appointments. There is little to no respect and consideration to the other people. I see it with Marleen and Ryan. It really pisses me when I see this. I see it with me as well. Just string you along. They want it out of me? Not so easily.
Daily Planetary Overview
The Moon in Pisces is sextile Pluto and opposite Mars today. You may experience anger or challenges from others, but this can be a healing experience if you look for a deeper meaning. Spiritually, there are many opportunities for growth and renewal now if you can stay open and flexible.
Not looking forward to the morning... Either way, will have to go through it. I need to work on updating that blog in the morning.
Coincidence
Thursday, July 1, 2010
I just noticed this last night when it just happen to be the day becomes unattached and it also happens on this end as well. Does it mean anything? Or is it a sign? An interesting turn of events it sure it. It does make things more complicated and there's a greater risk. Not like there wasn't enough of it before.
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100630112626AAgXyID
~Look me in the Eye Ball, I love the way you lie~
I need to really change pants, there's a for sure thing to do. It's getting rather flakey. I also need to be more careful at what I pick at. Try ot be nice. Hmm who knew that just adjusting the chair could be so much fun? I thought I maybe too light to, but it turns out that you need to sit on it. Yet I was just reading an article that you shouldn't sit on it. I still feel the need regardless. I feel kind of tired today. Could be the late night, it could be the trauma. Yet none of it matters, I still got to keep going.
-Put cloths away
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It may not seem much, but anything is sure better than nothing. Plus I got to haul arse in the morning to pester some people. Else, I don't think there's much to do as I can think of now besides some minor things that can wait. Else just try to organize cloths and toss some for now.
I just noticed this last night when it just happen to be the day becomes unattached and it also happens on this end as well. Does it mean anything? Or is it a sign? An interesting turn of events it sure it. It does make things more complicated and there's a greater risk. Not like there wasn't enough of it before.
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100630112626AAgXyID
~Look me in the Eye Ball, I love the way you lie~
I need to really change pants, there's a for sure thing to do. It's getting rather flakey. I also need to be more careful at what I pick at. Try ot be nice. Hmm who knew that just adjusting the chair could be so much fun? I thought I maybe too light to, but it turns out that you need to sit on it. Yet I was just reading an article that you shouldn't sit on it. I still feel the need regardless. I feel kind of tired today. Could be the late night, it could be the trauma. Yet none of it matters, I still got to keep going.
-Put cloths away
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It may not seem much, but anything is sure better than nothing. Plus I got to haul arse in the morning to pester some people. Else, I don't think there's much to do as I can think of now besides some minor things that can wait. Else just try to organize cloths and toss some for now.
Go to Hell
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Ye, that pretty much sums it up.
Oh great, pig heads. So I am stuck here for the later 2 hours of the day dragging on and on. Though I did find a coupon to use on a pizza on a place I do not know where it is. I am sire is tired and lots on mind. As much as I like to dout, is really everywhere. Know does try to take care of me. Things of late doesn't seem to be going well. I can't really put my finger on it. I figure things be getting worse before they they better. I see an invetable end. More self dout and self loathing. At least today a good portion of the day was passed by some busy monkey work. And what do to with the rest of the day? I didn't have much time to write anything. I should try not stay away from that kind of negative readings, but books just seem unrealistic. Try to find something to pass the time by with and think about more positive things and things that are really going on and not just what's in my head. Not that it's always wrong, just tiring.
~Uncertainity~
So many things uncertain this weekend. But what is it I want to do? I did try to fix the farming thing, but to no a due. I am not sure what I am waiting for. It's never what I want is it? Maybe it's just the fustration. Maybe it's just how things seems different for me. A good part of me is ready and has already accepted it and wants nothing more. Another part want to just cut all ties. Another part just wants to be set free. A part of me wants to go home and snother part saids why go home? I still need to list things I want to do. I'll just be here for a bit today and realize a fantasy.
-Wrap Zon
-Ear Ring
-Put Cloths away
-Bring out new Cloths
-Floss
Think that's good enough for now.
Ye, that pretty much sums it up.
Oh great, pig heads. So I am stuck here for the later 2 hours of the day dragging on and on. Though I did find a coupon to use on a pizza on a place I do not know where it is. I am sire is tired and lots on mind. As much as I like to dout, is really everywhere. Know does try to take care of me. Things of late doesn't seem to be going well. I can't really put my finger on it. I figure things be getting worse before they they better. I see an invetable end. More self dout and self loathing. At least today a good portion of the day was passed by some busy monkey work. And what do to with the rest of the day? I didn't have much time to write anything. I should try not stay away from that kind of negative readings, but books just seem unrealistic. Try to find something to pass the time by with and think about more positive things and things that are really going on and not just what's in my head. Not that it's always wrong, just tiring.
~Uncertainity~
So many things uncertain this weekend. But what is it I want to do? I did try to fix the farming thing, but to no a due. I am not sure what I am waiting for. It's never what I want is it? Maybe it's just the fustration. Maybe it's just how things seems different for me. A good part of me is ready and has already accepted it and wants nothing more. Another part want to just cut all ties. Another part just wants to be set free. A part of me wants to go home and snother part saids why go home? I still need to list things I want to do. I'll just be here for a bit today and realize a fantasy.
-Wrap Zon
-Ear Ring
-Put Cloths away
-Bring out new Cloths
-Floss
Think that's good enough for now.
Blue Mondays
Monday, June 28, 2010
Was the weekend so bad? Not really. It just passed. I think I got more rest than usual. I just seemed to pass. There were a lot of thoughs and wonderings more or less, but it's best I keep to myself and let things be. I think dead swimmers are making my mouth feel the way it does. I don't recall it ever feeling this way when I ate cereal. I got to figure out this bump. It really is buggin me. This does woory me that I can be so hormonal. What are the chances 3 bumps in one week and then 3 squeeter bite as well?
Something to check out to make Pasta: http://www.villabertolli.com/recipes/
And a good read: http://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/?count=26&before=t3_cjn45
Was the weekend so bad? Not really. It just passed. I think I got more rest than usual. I just seemed to pass. There were a lot of thoughs and wonderings more or less, but it's best I keep to myself and let things be. I think dead swimmers are making my mouth feel the way it does. I don't recall it ever feeling this way when I ate cereal. I got to figure out this bump. It really is buggin me. This does woory me that I can be so hormonal. What are the chances 3 bumps in one week and then 3 squeeter bite as well?
Something to check out to make Pasta: http://www.villabertolli.com/recipes/
And a good read: http://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/?count=26&before=t3_cjn45
Poker Face
Friday, June 25, 2010
Yesterday was pretty fun, Actually caught an ep of Glee and it was a fun show. I can see why it's so popular now. It's rediculious at time and you realize how stupid the kids are. I really don't think things are really as dramatic as they really are. Maybe it's because there is really nothing going on and I have to make things happen because it gets too boring. The tag on the back of my shirt is really hurting me. I think there are things that can hurt me more. I actually got the things on the list done. So yay me. I will start on another list soon as I talk to some people to verify some things. I think I do rather work. Plus, I make the same amount in less time. So why not. Plus, more money to spend on snakes then. It maybe better not to mention things that would make others feel bad or thoughts that that affect you the same way.
~Cause and Effect~
I went to look up affect meaning to influence and effect meaning the result of and I feel I learned something today. I just hope I cam remember it. Gosh darn it! Got a big old pimple on the chin. It has been awhile since I have gotten one this big. But I think it's when I use the cleaner pads I start to break out. It has been fine since then till I started to use the pads again. But what excuse do I have now?
Yesterday was pretty fun, Actually caught an ep of Glee and it was a fun show. I can see why it's so popular now. It's rediculious at time and you realize how stupid the kids are. I really don't think things are really as dramatic as they really are. Maybe it's because there is really nothing going on and I have to make things happen because it gets too boring. The tag on the back of my shirt is really hurting me. I think there are things that can hurt me more. I actually got the things on the list done. So yay me. I will start on another list soon as I talk to some people to verify some things. I think I do rather work. Plus, I make the same amount in less time. So why not. Plus, more money to spend on snakes then. It maybe better not to mention things that would make others feel bad or thoughts that that affect you the same way.
~Cause and Effect~
I went to look up affect meaning to influence and effect meaning the result of and I feel I learned something today. I just hope I cam remember it. Gosh darn it! Got a big old pimple on the chin. It has been awhile since I have gotten one this big. But I think it's when I use the cleaner pads I start to break out. It has been fine since then till I started to use the pads again. But what excuse do I have now?
Enrique Miguel Iglesias
Thursday, June 24, 2010
~Gorgious~
His name is perfect. Even his middle name. I wonder if they make it that way to sound more appealing? I am still bitter about how changed things for no apparent reason. Not like it was time to change. Has to be hiding something. I so need to remember to save the pict of the woodchuck. He is too adorable. I am hearing stories from pigeon and I don't like what I hear. It's not a good sign. Seems like it's all talk just to get your money. All talk and no action. It's just enough to maintain your attention. Some fellas are persistant aren't they? The attention is nice. The sandmach was nice but something about it is bothering my toung. maybe some chips will help? Not really sure. I just had an apple. It was tasty, but I think it left me wanting more. The chips are rather crunchy. I should have more time today to actually get a thing or two done so I better start listing.
-Move Car Picts
-Vac Carpet
-Plant Catnip
-Plant flowers
-
~Apples~
The toung does feel better after the apple, yay apple. I am not sure why the chips I have, a good portion of them are folded. Today the passed by fairly well. Nothing too painful. The comp fixed up fairly well, mostly thanks to the brother weather I want to admit it or not.
~Takako~
This week was the first in a long time I have communicated to her. I will assume she is still living at home and ask how the brother is. I am tempted to eat more chips, but I should resist. Where hse is at in life reminded me a lot of myself. I wonder if I should prepare for more to come. I know how she feels. It's a familar feeling. I do hope she does well pray that she finds her way.
~Deadend~
So today I made a realization that this job maybe not going anywhere, but I think I am okay with it. I will find a way to make it out of this alright. I always knew there was a chance, but I am more fearful now. So far, I have been lucky, I do thank the Lord for that and pray that everyone continues to protect me in more ways than one. Maybe it was a reminder. I will take it seriously. I need to work on being a better actor. I need to be better at pertending. Do not be the victim, even if you are, do not act like you are. Find ways to use them. Make them useful to you. Do not be modest.
~Gorgious~
His name is perfect. Even his middle name. I wonder if they make it that way to sound more appealing? I am still bitter about how changed things for no apparent reason. Not like it was time to change. Has to be hiding something. I so need to remember to save the pict of the woodchuck. He is too adorable. I am hearing stories from pigeon and I don't like what I hear. It's not a good sign. Seems like it's all talk just to get your money. All talk and no action. It's just enough to maintain your attention. Some fellas are persistant aren't they? The attention is nice. The sandmach was nice but something about it is bothering my toung. maybe some chips will help? Not really sure. I just had an apple. It was tasty, but I think it left me wanting more. The chips are rather crunchy. I should have more time today to actually get a thing or two done so I better start listing.
-Move Car Picts
-Vac Carpet
-Plant Catnip
-Plant flowers
-
~Apples~
The toung does feel better after the apple, yay apple. I am not sure why the chips I have, a good portion of them are folded. Today the passed by fairly well. Nothing too painful. The comp fixed up fairly well, mostly thanks to the brother weather I want to admit it or not.
~Takako~
This week was the first in a long time I have communicated to her. I will assume she is still living at home and ask how the brother is. I am tempted to eat more chips, but I should resist. Where hse is at in life reminded me a lot of myself. I wonder if I should prepare for more to come. I know how she feels. It's a familar feeling. I do hope she does well pray that she finds her way.
~Deadend~
So today I made a realization that this job maybe not going anywhere, but I think I am okay with it. I will find a way to make it out of this alright. I always knew there was a chance, but I am more fearful now. So far, I have been lucky, I do thank the Lord for that and pray that everyone continues to protect me in more ways than one. Maybe it was a reminder. I will take it seriously. I need to work on being a better actor. I need to be better at pertending. Do not be the victim, even if you are, do not act like you are. Find ways to use them. Make them useful to you. Do not be modest.
Gloomy - Bent Out of Shape
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Goodness, someone is sure anal. I need to be more careful. I find that I better clear things with Jer than Tod. Rather useless eh? I guess someone mentioned how we can't use this address helps. So it makes scene now. Yay for them filling me in. I find myself wanting to still mention things because I don't want to see like I don't know what's really going on. But that may give heads up and give more time to plan ahead. In a way I do this just to test myself in a way. More and more I find myself not caring. Even this week with the .. I don't even bother. As if I am tired of it all and here it goes again.
-Pot Flowers
-Plant Cat Nip
-Dig out Kraft Pasta Reci
-Sams membership
I have been feeling fat of late. It could be because all I do is sit at work all day. Has really been working for a month and a half really taken a tole on the body? I also read some things that are startling and is freaking me out and also with my weight gain. They make it sound so simple, but I guess when things are going well, you don't really have to mention anything. The thought of it really scares me. Got to stay safe and ease of clean up. It is really stories like those freak me out. I am really weak, I can't even swing my legs without getting tired. I really need to start working out. It's nice to stretch. It feels nice to burn. And as much effort it takes to eat an apple, I have recalled the tastiness of the apple. maybe too much apple juice has made me forget how tasty they are. Is Sams just stupid? I am asking about the name on the card. And the jerk changed it again. What is with it? Then again, knows nothing on this end. So far nothing too incriminating. But you only need to find one thing and everything blows up on you. At this point, I think I know what I need to do. For the most part, the less I know, the better off I am. But so far, been over a year and still alright. Though it gets more or less frequent and I worry on that end. Else, I need to find ways to easy my mind. There are times when I think things happen or are done because of me, but that's not the case usually. Really it's not. But if I had not read it, I may have just continued on.
Work was just stupid. The comp freaks out because of some stupid virus which who doesn't have antivirus? Stupid, just pure stupid. I think better off just calling techgen on this. I don't need to be bothered so much. Plus, I can learn by seeing.
Goodness, someone is sure anal. I need to be more careful. I find that I better clear things with Jer than Tod. Rather useless eh? I guess someone mentioned how we can't use this address helps. So it makes scene now. Yay for them filling me in. I find myself wanting to still mention things because I don't want to see like I don't know what's really going on. But that may give heads up and give more time to plan ahead. In a way I do this just to test myself in a way. More and more I find myself not caring. Even this week with the .. I don't even bother. As if I am tired of it all and here it goes again.
-Pot Flowers
-Plant Cat Nip
-Dig out Kraft Pasta Reci
-Sams membership
I have been feeling fat of late. It could be because all I do is sit at work all day. Has really been working for a month and a half really taken a tole on the body? I also read some things that are startling and is freaking me out and also with my weight gain. They make it sound so simple, but I guess when things are going well, you don't really have to mention anything. The thought of it really scares me. Got to stay safe and ease of clean up. It is really stories like those freak me out. I am really weak, I can't even swing my legs without getting tired. I really need to start working out. It's nice to stretch. It feels nice to burn. And as much effort it takes to eat an apple, I have recalled the tastiness of the apple. maybe too much apple juice has made me forget how tasty they are. Is Sams just stupid? I am asking about the name on the card. And the jerk changed it again. What is with it? Then again, knows nothing on this end. So far nothing too incriminating. But you only need to find one thing and everything blows up on you. At this point, I think I know what I need to do. For the most part, the less I know, the better off I am. But so far, been over a year and still alright. Though it gets more or less frequent and I worry on that end. Else, I need to find ways to easy my mind. There are times when I think things happen or are done because of me, but that's not the case usually. Really it's not. But if I had not read it, I may have just continued on.
Work was just stupid. The comp freaks out because of some stupid virus which who doesn't have antivirus? Stupid, just pure stupid. I think better off just calling techgen on this. I don't need to be bothered so much. Plus, I can learn by seeing.
Salty
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
At this point, I really don't feel like writing emails. I mean I want to think I have done a few things, and yet time passes by so slowly. I just checked the site, most of it goes in circles so it looks like there is more than there actually is. So it helps to make the site look busy and boring at the same time. So I tried, the rest I can not care. I recall yesterday before going to sleep some things I want to be done.
-Pot flowers
-Change pillow case
-
I know there are other things, but I just can't find it now. I am in pain right now, I think too much coc also did a number on the tummy. I am not sure, maybe it was the salty sandmach. I really don't feel much like eating and I am once again feeling rather bloated and head is itchy. I am not sure if it's the pillow case, but I should change it anyways.
At this point, I really don't feel like writing emails. I mean I want to think I have done a few things, and yet time passes by so slowly. I just checked the site, most of it goes in circles so it looks like there is more than there actually is. So it helps to make the site look busy and boring at the same time. So I tried, the rest I can not care. I recall yesterday before going to sleep some things I want to be done.
-Pot flowers
-Change pillow case
-
I know there are other things, but I just can't find it now. I am in pain right now, I think too much coc also did a number on the tummy. I am not sure, maybe it was the salty sandmach. I really don't feel much like eating and I am once again feeling rather bloated and head is itchy. I am not sure if it's the pillow case, but I should change it anyways.
Work
Monday, June 21, 2010
So today was maybe the first of ever actually working on something. Or at least I got something to do mroe or less now. Not sure how much to write, but I should start on something. I didn't really eat much today. Not really sure why. I do want to eat, but I think more or less a little too antsy on eating in public and I an feeling fat anyway. I don't really want to rest, I want to get some things done and feel productive. I feel the ever so more disapointment. But at least I feel more like eating, but I am not sure if I should bring my greenies home so I can eat it too. Or I should just buy some more. Keep things simple my dear. Don't make things hard on yourself. Though I do feel like fried chicken and potato salad. I need to get some to check to see what kind of cheese I got first before I stock up on it. I hope I have more time later to look over some things and write some more about this weekend and all the foodie plans of things I want to eat.
So today was maybe the first of ever actually working on something. Or at least I got something to do mroe or less now. Not sure how much to write, but I should start on something. I didn't really eat much today. Not really sure why. I do want to eat, but I think more or less a little too antsy on eating in public and I an feeling fat anyway. I don't really want to rest, I want to get some things done and feel productive. I feel the ever so more disapointment. But at least I feel more like eating, but I am not sure if I should bring my greenies home so I can eat it too. Or I should just buy some more. Keep things simple my dear. Don't make things hard on yourself. Though I do feel like fried chicken and potato salad. I need to get some to check to see what kind of cheese I got first before I stock up on it. I hope I have more time later to look over some things and write some more about this weekend and all the foodie plans of things I want to eat.
Miss
Friday, June 18, 2010
It really is a scary feeling. I am starting to more or less playing it out in my head. And it really is getting scary at this point where I can almost see it becoming more and more real. I try not to think about it and rather think of ways to make my hair better. So it seems like the spray stuff works to get out tangles, but you I something more creamy and heavy for the dryness. I used the green stuff this morning and it's for now keeping it being freezy and weighing it down. If and when they give me something to do, time does seem to pass by a smudge faster. It's Friday after all. I really am trying to stay away from the word but as much as I can. I do use it a wee too much.
Not sure if looking back was such a hot idea. There were somethings I had forgotten and not only the reasons for resentment, but also why it was possible. But I got other things to think about and to plan for. I got carpet to vac, but I think I can still do it tomorrow. And then I want to at least vac the hard floor if it hasn't been because it's really bugging me. We still got so much left over to deal with. I will try to clear it out and rearrange it the best I can.
It really is a scary feeling. I am starting to more or less playing it out in my head. And it really is getting scary at this point where I can almost see it becoming more and more real. I try not to think about it and rather think of ways to make my hair better. So it seems like the spray stuff works to get out tangles, but you I something more creamy and heavy for the dryness. I used the green stuff this morning and it's for now keeping it being freezy and weighing it down. If and when they give me something to do, time does seem to pass by a smudge faster. It's Friday after all. I really am trying to stay away from the word but as much as I can. I do use it a wee too much.
Not sure if looking back was such a hot idea. There were somethings I had forgotten and not only the reasons for resentment, but also why it was possible. But I got other things to think about and to plan for. I got carpet to vac, but I think I can still do it tomorrow. And then I want to at least vac the hard floor if it hasn't been because it's really bugging me. We still got so much left over to deal with. I will try to clear it out and rearrange it the best I can.
Go Turtle
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Time today didn't pass as quickly, but the emails did help pass the last hour more quickly. I need to quickly get back and take care of some things that were left undone this morning. I do want to make a note that I am free of my plan. It's an odd feeling. Not so much of devistation or loss at all, but a sence of freedom.
Time today didn't pass as quickly, but the emails did help pass the last hour more quickly. I need to quickly get back and take care of some things that were left undone this morning. I do want to make a note that I am free of my plan. It's an odd feeling. Not so much of devistation or loss at all, but a sence of freedom.
Nagindra
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
For some reason, that name poped into my head. Try so hard to get nothing in return. I shouldn't expect anything anyways. I think the hairspray has caused the bump. I need to not spray it directly on my hair. The convos does pass the time more quickly, but for how long? I wonder how wrong this is? At the same time I do not care. I feel like eating chips, but there are none in the proxsimity. Maybe tomorrow after work. My undies are sure tight and warm.
Day does sure go by quicky. The chatting does help pass the time by, but most is boring convo. Really I have to be in the mood to entertain. I really have a longing for salad. Today was more or less a day that was just a freebie. Maybe tomorrow I can be more thinky and be more productive. I do worry a smudge about all this, but today, just brought up some things I am bitter about and then I just don't care. I just want to do the things I want to and take care of things on my end and on my own.
For some reason, that name poped into my head. Try so hard to get nothing in return. I shouldn't expect anything anyways. I think the hairspray has caused the bump. I need to not spray it directly on my hair. The convos does pass the time more quickly, but for how long? I wonder how wrong this is? At the same time I do not care. I feel like eating chips, but there are none in the proxsimity. Maybe tomorrow after work. My undies are sure tight and warm.
Day does sure go by quicky. The chatting does help pass the time by, but most is boring convo. Really I have to be in the mood to entertain. I really have a longing for salad. Today was more or less a day that was just a freebie. Maybe tomorrow I can be more thinky and be more productive. I do worry a smudge about all this, but today, just brought up some things I am bitter about and then I just don't care. I just want to do the things I want to and take care of things on my end and on my own.
Coincidence?
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Enrique Iglesias : Euphoria, I was just looking this up because I just saw it on facebook, and then there is it playing on 101.3. Is that not an apple on the head moment or what? I was looking at cloths and makeup again. It was very tempting, but it also reminded me of the cloths and makeup that I already have and need to get rid of. I know it's going to take time to go through, but it's going to be a long process and just toss bits at a time. Lots of little things to do.
-ask about ear buds
-bake a bread
-print out list
-check when post was made
I hope that plant is okay. Lets try not to use so many buts. Whatever happens, happens. No harm. One less thing to take care of. So lets not worry about it. Hey, I think I can maybe use the socks to cover up the sun flowers. So that's some use, not like I can really wear them. I seem to be waiting for something. I am not sure what I am waiting for.
He sure sucks as an asset manager. I could do a better job. I need to get some ham. I miss the nice stalty meaty taste of ham. Healthy is getting boring at this point. At this point, I only got an hour left. So I need to decide on what I need to do. Tomorrow, I guess I could get a sub if I can remember to print out a coupon and I still want to drop by for a $2 meal deal.
They did help to pass the last hour, and we find out he was off to do hemoriod surgery.
Enrique Iglesias : Euphoria, I was just looking this up because I just saw it on facebook, and then there is it playing on 101.3. Is that not an apple on the head moment or what? I was looking at cloths and makeup again. It was very tempting, but it also reminded me of the cloths and makeup that I already have and need to get rid of. I know it's going to take time to go through, but it's going to be a long process and just toss bits at a time. Lots of little things to do.
-ask about ear buds
-bake a bread
-print out list
-check when post was made
I hope that plant is okay. Lets try not to use so many buts. Whatever happens, happens. No harm. One less thing to take care of. So lets not worry about it. Hey, I think I can maybe use the socks to cover up the sun flowers. So that's some use, not like I can really wear them. I seem to be waiting for something. I am not sure what I am waiting for.
He sure sucks as an asset manager. I could do a better job. I need to get some ham. I miss the nice stalty meaty taste of ham. Healthy is getting boring at this point. At this point, I only got an hour left. So I need to decide on what I need to do. Tomorrow, I guess I could get a sub if I can remember to print out a coupon and I still want to drop by for a $2 meal deal.
They did help to pass the last hour, and we find out he was off to do hemoriod surgery.
The Lure
Monday, June 14, 2010
~Hair~
Fishing lures and among others. Just received email about things that have been out bidded. Oh well, I still think there's about half that still have winning offers. I was just looking at images, or not really sure how it came about, just clicking on people KS95 has interviewed and ran into http://media.photobucket.com/image/david%20archuleta%20crush%20lyrics/hermypotter_/david-archie-david-archuleta-399794.jpg David Archuleta and thought this the hair I want to go for. Though still has some growing to do. But it's the look I want and I think can reasonably pull off. And then I need to find a way to condition my hair or I will have to chop it off. It's getting a little too stringy at the bottom.
~Cracker~
From mt exchanges, I realize how white the world is. No matter my own breath and depth, it's still the color. It's still white.
I bet, I just got a feeling that someone is oversleeping. This weekend overall not too bad. I mean it started out rough. I mean really rough. But it didn't seem to phase me much. I am not sure why. But I was urked. I try to just brush it off. I got plenty oh things to do that this just goes on the way side. An interting thought crossed my mind while on my way there that whatever happens, I will no be happy. I really don't think anything can apease me. I will find something that bothers me. My soda has lots most of it's air and homph. I know I am crumblie, but it can't be helped, and it gives me something to do. I really don't have much time left, I don't want to spend it bitter and arguing. Not like there is going to be much time for arguing either when it comes down to it. So why not pass the time more gleefully? I just try not to think about it and let it run like water off a bird's back.
~Dump~
Had an interesting pooing session. It came out heavy and sticky. I did feel better afterwards. But I more or less also had an icky sandmach. It had been sitting there for more than 4 days. So I think that's average. But it did taste a smuge bit funny.. So the things I need to work on today. I know I just can't be bothered by things I can not control and where the answer doesn't matter. It's not like I can't come up with the same answer as well. So I already know the answer. Is it really all that important to be right? Things I want to get done today.
-Repot plant
-Bake a bread
-Change phish water
-Ask about ear buds
-Condition hair
-Cleaning in general
Tomorrow - toss foodies
I can feel myself getting tired of sandmaches, but it could be today I had a funky one =/
~Hair~
Fishing lures and among others. Just received email about things that have been out bidded. Oh well, I still think there's about half that still have winning offers. I was just looking at images, or not really sure how it came about, just clicking on people KS95 has interviewed and ran into http://media.photobucket.com/image/david%20archuleta%20crush%20lyrics/hermypotter_/david-archie-david-archuleta-399794.jpg David Archuleta and thought this the hair I want to go for. Though still has some growing to do. But it's the look I want and I think can reasonably pull off. And then I need to find a way to condition my hair or I will have to chop it off. It's getting a little too stringy at the bottom.
~Cracker~
From mt exchanges, I realize how white the world is. No matter my own breath and depth, it's still the color. It's still white.
I bet, I just got a feeling that someone is oversleeping. This weekend overall not too bad. I mean it started out rough. I mean really rough. But it didn't seem to phase me much. I am not sure why. But I was urked. I try to just brush it off. I got plenty oh things to do that this just goes on the way side. An interting thought crossed my mind while on my way there that whatever happens, I will no be happy. I really don't think anything can apease me. I will find something that bothers me. My soda has lots most of it's air and homph. I know I am crumblie, but it can't be helped, and it gives me something to do. I really don't have much time left, I don't want to spend it bitter and arguing. Not like there is going to be much time for arguing either when it comes down to it. So why not pass the time more gleefully? I just try not to think about it and let it run like water off a bird's back.
~Dump~
Had an interesting pooing session. It came out heavy and sticky. I did feel better afterwards. But I more or less also had an icky sandmach. It had been sitting there for more than 4 days. So I think that's average. But it did taste a smuge bit funny.. So the things I need to work on today. I know I just can't be bothered by things I can not control and where the answer doesn't matter. It's not like I can't come up with the same answer as well. So I already know the answer. Is it really all that important to be right? Things I want to get done today.
-Repot plant
-Bake a bread
-Change phish water
-Ask about ear buds
-Condition hair
-Cleaning in general
Tomorrow - toss foodies
I can feel myself getting tired of sandmaches, but it could be today I had a funky one =/
Freaking
Friday, June 11, 2010
I feel as though I am getting some cramping. Some piercing pain the other day. Maybe I am just making myself sick at this point. The crussant are dry too. Maybe it's just my mouth. I don't know. Please don't punish me in this way. I am sorry if I have done something wrong. But please don't punish me this way. Am I really that unlucky? I am still freaking. Freaking more than I have before. Can I not want something any more? It's now close to 2 hours past the usual. And how in the world can she get so many ponies? I can not tell anymore if i am feeling the pain from the stress or from the cramping. Is it the same feeling just before an exam? I don't know if sitting here worrying will do any good. I am trying recall the lastest I have been. It has been a year already. I could be the lucky less than 1 in 100 to. Have not had a responce from the other, maybe revealing too much. But it's better to know sooner better than later. But if you are going to be that shallow, then so be it. Right now I am not concerened at all about the others, just about myself for now. I don't know why this happening. Is it because I have casted dout?
Thank the Lord. Now that was a scare. It's didn't appear until around 2:30. Now that was scary. I do feel so uc better, but the fear I think will always be there.
I feel as though I am getting some cramping. Some piercing pain the other day. Maybe I am just making myself sick at this point. The crussant are dry too. Maybe it's just my mouth. I don't know. Please don't punish me in this way. I am sorry if I have done something wrong. But please don't punish me this way. Am I really that unlucky? I am still freaking. Freaking more than I have before. Can I not want something any more? It's now close to 2 hours past the usual. And how in the world can she get so many ponies? I can not tell anymore if i am feeling the pain from the stress or from the cramping. Is it the same feeling just before an exam? I don't know if sitting here worrying will do any good. I am trying recall the lastest I have been. It has been a year already. I could be the lucky less than 1 in 100 to. Have not had a responce from the other, maybe revealing too much. But it's better to know sooner better than later. But if you are going to be that shallow, then so be it. Right now I am not concerened at all about the others, just about myself for now. I don't know why this happening. Is it because I have casted dout?
Thank the Lord. Now that was a scare. It's didn't appear until around 2:30. Now that was scary. I do feel so uc better, but the fear I think will always be there.
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