Sunday, December 26, 2010
Lord
The Sun conjuncts Pluto today, bringing your attention to the hidden side of life. Although you may like to ignore the undercurrents that are going on all around you, today will make it difficult to keep things below the surface. It may be wiser to shine light on whatever darkness you face.
Your Horoscope - Today, Dec. 26, 2010
Don't make any rash judgments or leap to any conclusions today, Melly. Misconception is in the air, and you wouldn't want to risk offending someone simply because you got the wrong impression. This is a day for observing, not acting. This may be difficult for you, leader that you are, but ultimately it will prove beneficial. You will find that you learn a lot about people simply by watching them.
Constant change and instability. Attachment and instability. I learned something today somewhat unexpected. I knew something was up, but now I have a glimps. Not sure of the whole story, but I don't like it. Not sure what to do about it. Not sure if to confront or not. I will give it some time...
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Knots
Daily Planetary Overview
The Moon in Cancer forms three easy trines to other planets today, allowing you to take the time to relax and nurture yourself. This may be a good day to spend at home or with family, taking it easy and recuperating from your work in the outside world.
Your Horoscope - Today, Dec. 22, 2010
The energy of this day may leave you feeling a bit mixed up and confused, mel. You may be unsure which way to act and your emotions are in a twisted pile of knots. The key to unraveling this mess is to simply slow down and take it one step at a time. You will find that after the first small knot is unraveled, others will easily follow suit. Try not to get ahead of yourself. Take it slow and easy.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Insetteling Dreams
The Moon moves into easygoing Taurus today and later forms harmonious trine aspects to the planets of power (Pluto) and communication (Mercury). You can relax today and trust that you don't have to try too hard to get your point across.
Your Horoscope - Today, Dec. 16, 2010
Love is coming your way today, mel, and for some reason, things just seem to be flowing easily and naturally in this area of your life. The thing to watch for is to make sure you don't get distracted by something that seems bigger, better, and brighter than what you already have. Remember that a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush. Don't throw away the good things you've got.
This one really hit like a ton of bricks. It's related to this morning's some what vivid dream and passing thoughts of going after something for a moment thought could be better for some reason..
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
Poor Thing

Scary:
The Tower | The Devil | The Magician |
There's an intense atmosphere surrounding your emotional relationships today, and love appears to be based on jealousy, possessiveness and all-consuming passion. The alliance of the Devil and the Tower is injecting so much energy into your love life that it's leading to loud arguments followed by frenzied reconciliations. If people didn't know you had such ardent feelings before, dear Melly, they surely will now! In your working life, this is a day where you will find it difficult to hide your ambitions. With the Devil and the Magician behind you, you will bring a great deal of intelligence and efficiency to your work, but you will basically be very egoistical, and this may upset the people around you, who are expecting you to be working as part of their team. If you are not careful, you will have to deal with feelings of jealousy, and with conflicts!
At least things show up better. The taro really hit it on the head today. Usually it's a hit or miss or something I guess try to make fit. But this was more after the fact. I have not worked on art for a long time. Not sure if I can make anything out of it. But Matt challenged me to creating something that I have long not done. It shall be interesting. I don't want to take much time on this as on many other things.
~Stero Love~
Can you promise you won't let go?
When are you going to stop breaking my heart?
I don't want to be another one.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Holding Back Tears Until it Rains

Monday, November 1, 2010
Reaching

Friday, October 29, 2010
Illness
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Later Never Comes Does It?
Your Horoscope - Today, Sept. 29, 2010
You are good at justifying things in order to make yourself feel better about certain events and emotional difficulties, Melly. Just make sure that you are not doing yourself a disservice by doing so. It could be that you are trying to cover up the very emotions that could actually help you. Above all, you need to be honest with yourself, or else you may end up getting yourself in a bigger emotional pickle than you started out in.
This is something I worry about. I don't know if I am doing myself a disservice by doing so. So much to catch up on and so much to do.
Beginning of the End
It's something I have tried my best to prepare for. It's still tough nether the less. S many words to use. What was to be a good week turned out to be a miserable one. So miserable. But I think I will make it through it one way or another. I will come out alright. It won't be so bad. Things will be okay. I will deal with it. I pray for things to work out in everyone's best interest. I really mean that in the most unselfish way I can.
You can't avoid things forever. I will try my best to make lemon aid.
Decisions Decisions
I worry I may miss out on something. I guess I never really did the math to find out what 15hr really makes and no benefits either. Can I really get by with that much or should I say little? My parents are able to do it with less. Sure they have a lot of help and it's not like I am not getting any either. It will make things more steady. I fear I have had too much freedom and in the corp world be so different. More rules and regulations.
Zinger
I am not sure if they so tasty if I saved them. But the zinger as tasty as they maybe, the bbq snakes are also acting up. Not a good day. The take of it is too smokey for my taste. I did really like the popcorn.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Remains Unseen
Mariage d'Amour
Getting Over
Heat
Bummer
Gosh Darn It!
Aww Shucks
Your Horoscope - Today, Aug. 19, 2010
Attitude
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It's the whole due diligance thing. I mean you are sitting there, I mean do you mean to not deal with it right now? I thought you would want it to be closer, but I guess not. So screw how you feel and do what's best in the setting. All feelings aside. I know I've got problems. But my feelings aside, can it be really such a bad thing if it makes them happy? I feel sad if it's at the expense of my own. So many Secrets...
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I was thinking of going out, but then again there isn't anything I really want. I did got take a peek. There maybe a belt, but I am not sure. I got a few back home. I really can't see myself with a larger belt. But it's all less than $30 so I can't use the $15 off $30. I just have so much dout on all this. I am not even looking forward to it. I do really feel it will work out the way I saw from the start. I don't see why someone can't just enjoy the time here while it lasts instead mooping it all away.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
Complaint
There's always one isn't it? I am not sure where this is going. A part of me is really scared. A part of me really wants to stay. A part of me really wants to leave. A part of me can't see where I belong in this. A part of me wants to make something out of it. I had the same realization as I did the other times where as I was on the phone, there was nothing to talk about. It's so early in the day and nothing is going on. I am more or less consumed by my own demons. How long can this go on? I will find a time eventually. I worry about the worse.
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OMFG.... it smells so bad... I can't beleive some guys can smell so bad. It's horendious.
Taro: Your romantic hopes might well be shattered today, and you may be forced to seriously consider a separation. The conjunction of the card of Death and the Star often indicates an emotional crisis, and it goes without saying that this could be making you feel very downbeat today. It’s difficult to give advice in these situations, but it’s no good swimming against the current or trying to convince someone to stay if they have already packed their case, dear mel. Deep down, of course, you know that with time you’ll get over it. In your work environment, your projects and your professional career seem to be stalling at the moment. You’re basically waiting for a green light or for a change in the organization, as in the absence of this your hands are tied and you cannot do anything, or commit to even the smallest expense. Having to wait like this is costing you your last nerve and yet there is nothing you can do. The alliance of Temperance and Death shows that you with a little good will you will be able to be patient and to adapt to the new order of things.
It has come back to this point that whatever happens, it doesn't matter as long as you are happy doing what you are doing, it no longer matters to me. I am unsatisfied with a lot of things that has come to my attention. There is really no one I can speak to about it. Yet there seems to be more pressing issues that needs to be resolved than what I want. Not to say what I want isn't important, but it just doesn't seem all that important with all that is going on around. When it is important enough to deal with? Or does it always take a backseat? When will it be its turn? How long do I wait? Is there a need for a talk? We'll see. There be a time and place for it.
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And the many things to do while i still have my head on straight. I should go out and get some bread, but not sure where yet. I already got cookies, so do I really need more? Not really. I am also temped to stop by express as well.
-Wrap and ship zon
-Bread
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Dungness
I can't seem to get the timing right. I don't really want to care about other things right now. But it's light right when I want to pop in there to talk, something happens. Someone else either pops in or calls. The timing is just not right. So with the ebay bidding thing, I did learn a thing or 2. Which is not to give people time to bid. But how much time do I need? I think 10 seconds will do with the buffer time to confirm. There won't be enough time to make another bid on top of that. I feel now I should not think so much and just do. A simple responce. A quick responce. You tend to forget things quickly. Now is a $5 discout enough? Not really, but it's better than nothing. Got to search local ads, I forgot to look. I was just sitting here and thinking to myself good Lord where was that smell coming from? I at first thought it was my trash, but I looked up and noticed the dying flowers and you know how that can smell. And so the two have imprissoned thenselves in their cave. Not sure what it going on there.
This is rediculious. All they do is hide in there. What can be so important? I still want to try to finish off the salad before I go browsing. Will I still want to go back out out if I do that? I am sure salad can't sit that long without me watching it. Why so dark outside? Not sure what's up with the weather. I don't really feel much like approaching the issue. As after talking onver the phone, they seem to not want me to do anything about it. I am lossing will to be here. I am also lossing will to work on other relactions as well. Maybe too much dead air in the office. So many things I want to do... There is one pressing thing I really want to get over with. It just doesn't seem to be the right time. I have given myself this week as a deadline.
Butt Cramps
Now I really know how out of shape I am in. Gosh, Jer does look so old.
Thank the Lord
Many things to be thankful for even though we are in these confusing times. Everything may not be able to be solved at one time. But it seems like when you get one thing done, another issue arises. Where do they all come from? Thank the Lord for me feeling better. Although last night was strange. I was all feaverish and dizzy, I felt like I was going to die. I woke up twice at around 2am and I felt scared and in a panic. My throat is still scratchy, not sure if it's the chips or who it is. Think it was scratchy in the first place, and I just may have made it worse. Unfortunatly they seem busy. I am sure I should not be eating chips, but I feel chipy. Okay, so I went and peeked, busy. And yesterday felt so bad, didn't get a chance to gget up this morning to call. Was going to have do it, but someone had to ditch me. Oh well, wasn't meant to be. Think when it comes down to the end, never was meant to pay me. They just meant there was a closing tomorrow. Gosh darn it. The days does sure go by faster when you are feeling better. I am still not sure if i should say something or not yet. I rather prepare on my own end first. The thing is that I may need to return to gather evidence.
I am greatful for the bleeding and for feeling better. I want to say if I was not feeling better, would I be more daring? I want to call first and make sure all my ducks are in a row.
-Change sheets
-Change fish
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It will depends on how the call goes how angery I get especially if I knew I would get some sort of compensation. But do I want to use them as a reference? I am not so sure about that. Not like either of them are all that dependable. Scope and Taro are reflective of today. Taro saids if I am going through with it, I need to be confident but I won't be till I make that call first.
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~Secrets~
They are so secretive. Not sure what is going on. can say it's to keep out sounds or to keep in sounds.. I don't like it. I really have a hard time respecting privacy. There is none with me, nor do I trust.
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Gosh darn it, I am so cold and wearing so many cloths. Their time is almost up and yet they are still in there. Anyways, I do want to be compulsive. But right now don't think anything they can do except give me more excuses. I will wait till at least Monday to see what's their responce and what I can do with it comes to the gov. I am really getting frazzeled by this. It doesn't help that I am not feeling well. I just ache all over right now. I should call them first. If I spu and nothing the giv can do, I leave work for nothing. At the same time I do want to and not want to be here anymore. I will make the call and see what the situation is or what they suggest.
Good God....
Daily Planetary Overview
This morning's Moon in Gemini square Mercury can bring a certain amount of tension to communication and information sharing. Try not to get too irritated if you can't seem to get your ideas across as quickly as you'd like. You may just need to cultivate patience and persistence until you get it right.
Your Horoscope - Today, Aug. 5, 2010
Freedom of speech is likely to be a big theme for you, mel. Don't be surprised if you find yourself up on your soapbox in support of the rights that you believe in. Others are apt to listen to you attentively, so be clear and concise in your arguments. Imagine yourself as someone who is giving a pep talk for a group of revolutionaries who are ready to launch a fight for an important cause. You can inspire others with your positive and encouraging nature.
Taro:
Today, the Magician and Justice emphasize the need for stability and security in your romantic life. This means that you will be looking to get reassurance from your loved one much more than normal, dear mel... And this is a potential source of danger today. Try not to be too insistent and forceful when demanding that reassurance. After all, "Rome wasn't built in a day." Professionally, you’ll be concentrating on working towards long-term perspectives. You’ll be showing great perseverance and tact in order to advance your goals, and you’re mainly concerned with being constructive. Under the aegis of Temperance and Justice, you are slowly building your little nest, by consolidating the bits and pieces you already have. This approach is clearly going to bear fruit.
Sore Throat
Is it really from just eating them stupid crutons? I was fine before and I just had them sticky hands to go eat a cruton... Gosh darn it. What scared me last night was how fast the pill disolved. I think I had it happen one time before. But I Pray that all is well. I really can't be stongy and let them melt. I really can't be carry them around with me all the time now that it's so warm. But it was scary how it turned powder.
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So the plan for now is to swing over the Cub and to chug down and bunch of pills. Not like I got anything to do once I am home, so why not drop by cub around here? I am feeling tired and at the same time do not care. I feel the tiredness taking it's toll on me. I haven't been staying up very late and yet I have not been eating much either. I really need to eat something. And then I am worried about pills disolving on me.
-Aspring
-Mouthwash
-More throat meds
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It's only mid weeks and I am already feeling this way. I do feel a smuge better after talking to the new chick. Maybe become an interesting ally in many ways. We shall see if this goes anywhere.
Just had a talk with the new chick. I do hope things are better for her than they are for me. But I do have a deadline for things. iT WILL BE DONE AND TAKEN CARE OF ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. And fine that jerk doesn't want to answer me. The throat is better. Not sure if it's because I am getting burned up over something else where it doesn't seem so bad. I should take something, not sure what. I guess a visit can't hurt. I am starting to feel a sence of urgency. It would help if I had my ss card. So I shall wait for it. I have dealt with it for this long, what is another 2 weeks? I am getting tired of not being paid. I wonder what is in store for me if I am not hear? That I think is what is holding me back. Lack of confidance I would say. I need to be believeable.
The Noise
Going to try to use blog more or less. Or at least leave a note here to help organize. Blogger does make things more colorful and I so want to add images, but I don't have them with me and I am lazy to add them when I get back. OMG the smell from whatever Jer was making in the microwave is making me puke.
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I was trying to buy a camera, but I missed it due to technical difficulties with the computer. Was I not to get it? I did want the purple one. But I have not had any luck finding one. I can keep searching till I find something else. Not sure yet what if anything is going on this weekend. Today's means didn't go bad. I just need to figure out tomorrow's meal. Realize to make bread, I may need a bread machine. heance why bread is on the pricier end. But even to make subs I don't think you need a bread machines unless you want to make loaves. The sub wasn't bad even for being like 2 - 3 days old. But I got to say it's them darn sprouts.
-Gather magazines
-Pack peanut butter candy
-Organize makeup brushes
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010
The Noise
Calleigh?
Who knew it was spelt that way, but I do really like that name.
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I sure really need some soda. So the new chick starts tomorrow. I need to still work on the wordrobe and keep warm at the same time. I don't have much as bluber as the other chick.
-Make a list from marketing
-Change phish
-Dinker with plants
-Cloth search
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So Cold
I guess I need to be more sensative. No wonder they don't eat, but how one is so fat and the other not? It's a rather strange querry. So not even they know what is going on and wants me to try to figure it out? It just seems like most of the time I am over thinking it all. And then letting the little minor random details slip through the cracks. What to do? Was thinking of zapping more things, but it seems like I should keep it at a min. Can always do the most minimal. I really can't see myself really making a career here. It has gotten to a point where it's too cold . I am really cold here. I don't feel that it's even worth the ffort to dress up even here. The only good thing is that I found my love for Coco Puffs again. They are more sweet and chocolaty than I remember. Should I just stick with the dog food? I have to worry more about what others will thing. I don't think I am meant to work in an office space. I do want to try to seek out a position in childcare and education.
-Stupid mints
-Undershirt
-Change fish
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Better Days
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I have had better days, but I guess this will do. I will take this. There has been things that has been troubling me. But I think it's the same old thing. I have more or less have spurts of butter anger and resentment and then there are times of uncaring. It maybe better if I had my own thing going and just not consider it in the equation. There are times I know of hardship and what should I do then? Should I do nothing? Should I walk away and leave them be? Should I help, but it's so hard at times and I get negative reactions and hurt myself in the process. Do I see the end game in all this? I don't really have time to make this trip. I need to find a way to make it happen and keep it within the perameters. We shall see. I have also learned that for a very specific coupon, there's no need to print it out as the likelyhood of me using it is none for the next 2 weeks I think. At least yesterday I got more cloths tossed away. Though I still feel the closet is still small, but cozy. Scope is telling me that there is going to be conflict. Yet it may not be such a bad thing. Taro is saying today won't be bad at all. That I don't need to go searching and that have a good footing. Also I have have the right reactions.
I still have a month to figure things out. Who knows what may appear in that time. So lets figure out what I need to be doing today.
-Feed fish
-Toss more cloths
-Print and wrap zon
-Bring water and peanut
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And on a side note, boy does microwave pizza sure taste bad. It was by far one of the worse ones I have tasted.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Minty
Why always look so stressed out? I did pretty well yesterday with getting things done. Hopefully today will be better. And you think you can give me more work and not pay me? WFT? You both can go to hell for suggesting it and not doing squat.
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It so hurts and bothersom between there. I don't even know where the bump comes from. It's so irritating. I need to put something on it. I so want some meat and cheese. I really don't care at this point. I am just cold again. Hopefully they end up paying someone for the site. I don't care either way. I have lost interest in this. Starting to feel indifferent. My eyes are dry from all the AC constantly being on. The thing is stupid and messed up. The messages all semed to stop at the same time. The suspecion will always be there. I get comfort in hoping they find something they are happy with. But I can't expect myself to be happy in the mean time. I just can't fully trust and it leads to other optential issues. For now, lets work on myself. On a side not lost my SSN card. It sucks. No one is to blame, but I was sure upset. Have to jump though some hoops and some things to worry about on the side. It is what it is. The bump is rather ajitating and compounded with the cold really doesn't help. Because if my reaction yesterday, I was a hour late. I must always keep my cool, so slip ups like that don't happen.
-Cream bump
-Paint nail
-Toss arrange cloths
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Sorry Doesn't Cut It

Well at least for now it looks like I got it all formated. The spacebar is still rather sticky. I still find myself addicted to makeup. There always seems to be something on sale. I have like all these bumps on the side of me face that I can't get over. They are now starting to burn. I am not sure why they are there or what for. They are sure bothersome.
Oh... I see now, so only gets food for himself and his buddie and leaves me out because I am less of a person right? Great! Men are selfish creatures. You don't get a single serving and expect to share. Can't count on them. You got to look out for yourself. And that's what I am going to do. I do have an issue with unable to hear when others are speaking. It's like what you say? Is my hearing that bad or they are all mumblie? Maybe it is me. I should really keep my hands off my face. It's really not good for it and now it's still bruning. Anyways, so I have given up on this end. Listening to other people's issues makes me sad in a way I don't have the same issues. I mean who wouldn't want to pound this? And I happen to find the one that doesn't. There are other issues besides the ones behind the backdoor. Wonder if I should drop this and let work on the more pressing ones. You just can't assume people will do things right away. I have to go out of my way. I am not sure if painting my nails are a good thing. It is too distracting.
Lets not get soo emotional now. It's not good for your skin either.
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