Endearing

Or maybe not. There has been signs but I feel this one is really the nail in the coffin. If I consider the other perspective, I don't think I would do the same unless I didn't care for it. At times picking I. The small details and other times just ignoring it. I don't think I can be honest with myself even here. It's just not what I think it is and not the same. Infatuation nothing more. Just to use you. When you are still useful. I can still smell it as it lingers. Not sure where else It can be coming from. There was the old  deodorant. Not sure I think I smell it. I think I know why it's familiar because it reminds me of a wet bird. It wasn't a nice smell not particularly bad. Just not nice a reminder.