Yesterday was consumed in panic over paper among other disappointments. Today the calm is back. There were slight moments of anticipation but was quickly dismissed. Didn't even get that much sleep today. It's about 6 hours maybe if even but was mentally there. Did not fold under the pressure of surcome to weakness. Stil expect a faster response or turnaround on a few of these things.
Day 1 of calm. Thoughts of stupidity and even yesterday just what did really see. Rose colored lens either fell or broke. Truely is old beyond your years but what really was a turn off the lack of enthusiasm for the project. Should not be nerding out? It was as if it was out of your control and it will be whatever it will be. Don't even give a rats arse. Suddenly become less interesting. How to keep self interesting. Gotta be interested in one self before others find you interesting. Hopefully the calm and focus will last longer. More productive this way and no one will care or focus on yourself beyond yourself.
Day 1 of calm. Thoughts of stupidity and even yesterday just what did really see. Rose colored lens either fell or broke. Truely is old beyond your years but what really was a turn off the lack of enthusiasm for the project. Should not be nerding out? It was as if it was out of your control and it will be whatever it will be. Don't even give a rats arse. Suddenly become less interesting. How to keep self interesting. Gotta be interested in one self before others find you interesting. Hopefully the calm and focus will last longer. More productive this way and no one will care or focus on yourself beyond yourself.
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