Trees

So today I didn't go to the library or anywhere much. I just decided that today maybe I want to just stay in. I kind of want to eat something, but it's not like I don't have anything at all in my room to eat. I should try to eat it all anyways and declutter myself in any way I can. I am more tired than ever. I really want to watch painted skin. There's something so inspiring about that movie that I really want to watch it. So should I just watch it here or so should I just move it and then watch it? I think I should move it tomorrow and then watch it on my own time and get on that econ stuff. But the tress feel kind of warm so I like it. I want to remain silent for a bit. I think I need the time. Hopefully today and for the rest ofthe evening I will get the time I need to rest. I am still distraught about the marketing. I really think I confused transnational and global marketing. No matter, what is done is done. I pray. So today called about help, but I don't know what I could have helped him with. But either way no matter. I made a some what a dark butterfly from eboard meeting, but it needs to be black, but close enough to Hell Butterfly. Then got some carmal and a little pin. Fun fun. Got back and ate some grapes and they were tasty. Also ate a poptart and found a nice little artical and droped it into the drop box. I can feel the muscles in my face or more like cheeks spazing. Not sure what it's from, maybe lack of sleep. Today overall was plesent, good enough. I am surprised that I didn't do taro today, but it saids over all it should be well and for scope it saids to clear my head. I think I do need a refreasher. I should not concern myself with too much. One thing at a time. I still think I could have been more prepared for marketing. I just want to do better than. Is that too much to ask? I am just very tired. I must rest, I'm not like. After the apple thing I need to crash. I'm done for the day.

I don't know if it's the polish or if I did something to it but the nails are cracking. So what I plan tod o is to give it another chance and then decide if it's crapy. Else I just over kill it and use it up quick. So the plan for the evening. After apple, then shower and take some time in there to take care of yourself, then crash. Hmm interesting on a side note red does seem to be more attractive.

So after getting back, talk to for a bit. It wasn't anything bad. It was nice and short. I really like how my desktop looks like now. Cleaner looking and the trees gives off a warm feeling. Besides that, I got some little erends to run tomorrow. Oh I so feel like a ramen, I can smell it shinae was eating, so good smelling. I haven't had a longing like this for a long time. It's the simple things I enjoy. Simple instant noodles. I need to resist the temptation to pick on the face. Be good now, at leat it's smooth. That way I can cover it up still. It's the stuff you can't cover that causes you trouble. I am so tempted to call, but I shall resist.

Oh JJ Lin

Oh suck a sceen from painted skin and them today bumped into some chography stuff. And so here I am today, not sure what to do. the more I think the more I have to doa nd I so need some soda but I am not that hungie right now. But I know I wilkl have to eat and this face thing is really stressing me out. So what to do. But the spelling isn't important as longa s I know what it's saying. SO much crap to print out and more crap to get donw before all gell breaks lose. So I am running out of room on the comps school space, so I need to clean it up and only save the stuff I need. Oh I hate him. I do really hope I don't have to see him. So bother some. I can't focuse like him. But it's funny my dear JJ he has a song in English and also one in canto which is kinda fun but the English one is kinda of sad. I want toe at chips, and yet I don't want to. I feel dry. The Canto song is about the choices. Is it really a cuisidance that the song is called the Choice is Yours? It's kinda creepys when today I don't know what's going on. I just know I am still tired and feeling less productive than ever. I feel as I am scared of something and maybe it's the lack of prepare for it. I need to get over this feeling and get things done. But scope saids that I should be able to get things done lets get started by eating first. But I don't want to print here because it's not two sided printing and I will freak out with 3 pages of print. It's better I don't know what he's saying. It's true when they say innorance is bliss. It's just nice and I will accept it as it is and be content. I do need to stop by the room sonner or later, or not. I don't really feel like popin back out or do I? I had 400 mins and I have already used up half of it. I do want to listen to JJ, but maybe it's best I spend some time to focus. Well I will see what I can done and I can try both and do what's most effective.

So lets see what to do now.. Not be too concerned, it's a test after all. Stop by bookstore quick for a snack maybe, but I do have enough to eat for now, but for the sake of peeping so I can thing is I want to tomorrow. Just focus on yourself first of all. I do want to print off craps. Oh yays so I made some room on the desktop and now I decided to print out marketing because I need to. The rest can wait for later if I decide to go out of not tomorrow will be fine too. So now the plan of attack... Go peep at the bookstore first, then to burger and get a burger or two. Then find a nice warm snugglie spot to get reading done and to spot check notes. It's still early. I need to read out load so I have to go through the text but crap I don't have it with me. Oh hmm.. So either way I need to go back. So go over notes now and go over book in the room or in some cover in the lab will do, I don't like the room or the kitchen =.=

Stuck in Dung Again

Be nice and get hit my lighting. Be nice get nothing nice in return. It's not like I ask for anything ncie or anything at all. I just don't want crap. No more shiet please?? I know it tests me and drives my pacients. Rediculous. He is always complaining about something. Stupid. Now he got me into a bad mood. Oh how many times do I need to play it all out in my mind. How I just want to smack him. I am really starting to resent him. But image if you were that person you dispise so much. But all of it be brings on to self. No one to blame but himself. Now I must conroll how I feel. Never let anyone affect how you feel. I can feel the pain, all you do seems for nothing. Nnd not only is it for nothing, you just get crap. Why won't just shut up? Why? What you say that? I will not change anything for anyone. The wond runs deep like the rip in my nail. Don't be lazy and just fix it. Don't pick at it. Don't be constantly reminded of it. Leave it alone. Be greatful you are not that person. You can't put a price on education, nor can you put a price on time. You are just better off spending it. But in reality it's really more competition. But because of the way I am, I assist the competition. I do have a realization, I see the end and I don't like it. So I need to cut this story short. No attachments, I will be compasionate, but I will not take crap from anyone, not even from him. No I will not take it.

But just looking at this really makes me not want to type it all out. Even if I did I don't want him to have any of it. But I guess it can't hurt to try. It's the loard giving me a chance to fix me feet, deal with him, and try something new. Else lord knows I can't type and talk at the same time. Thank you.

Enjoying his Dung

He really does like rolling around in his pile of shit. You try to get your friend out of his shiet but won't leave it. You can't force someone, but you can't say I didn't try. It was really driving my pacients. Just like the other freak so many issues. What you want me to do? If you are not going to fix it then why are you freaking troubleing me with it? Rediculous. I don't know they expect of me besides to listen. That's all I can do. For how I got through my own issues it was through other peoples stories and realizing gosh my life isn't that bad. I know I can get it together. Without fail. How hope they all will find their own way as well. As we all have to take our own paths. To loves thoes even if yo do not posses it. It's thoes that need it the most. To be content with what you have. Consider it all a test, a trial we all have to go through.

Phone Congee

My goodness that was a long night. It kinda reminds me of the times I would stay up with. But this time it's one the phone. I guess like saids kinda lonely or emptyness. Think we all get that sometimes and we just need someone to listen to use sometime. I hope feels better. It's one of thoes things where you talk about everything and yet nothing. It kinda got a little personal, but be careful what you let out. But at this point I really don't care. I want to get some rest. Lulu totally bailed out on me. I'm not sure what that is all about. Pigeon stopped by today and had a talk about the white monk. He's cool with his truck load of dung. Scope pretty much told me to just be nice and friendly. I think I can do that and besides being tired, today has been going pretty well. Got to steal a piece of steak from sim and I was surprised that he did not whine and squeel like he usually does. Watching suspernanny has just reminded me why I don't want to have childern lol. Just watching it makes me tired. Wow this defrag stuff is really slow. Maybe I should just finish it up later. I really do want to move this and to get it all done. It really is like a dream and now it's wolf man time ^^

More Dung

Lol best friend born as a worm in a pile of shit. The worm would wiggle and rive. Leave the worm to its pile of shit. I am a fat monk but it is not my fault. I get pressured, forced, cajoled. So when it is winter, always know there is the spring comes soon. Don’t go running around. You have to run sometimes, but not all the time. Need to stop, to remind yourself, to center yourself. Learn how to stop. To heal and to grow, to get out of the shit pile.

I decided to let the poor mind rest a bit. Last night, no music or anything. Just the sweet bitter silence. I need to put myself at ease so when I need to I can have the ability to do things when I need to. So what about now? I feel better today, much better. So I been turned down. Oh well. His lost, but it just what might be the thing that's saving me a bunch or trouble. But looking ahead lots to do next week and the poor little bugger isn't feeling well. It's best he get some rest anyways. Whatever the reason is it doesn't matter. But it doesn't mean I can't be positive about it anyways. I'm not so positive about econ though. I'm not sure what to do about it now, but Lord has given me time so I must use it wisely. I would go to bible study if I could, too bad I can't. But has thing been better since it? I can't tell yet. But it's all going the way it should be. So lets not thing too much or try to controll things. Things tend to work better if you let it be so enjoy the ride. And on a side note, he's kinda cute ^^

Happiness in Misserie

And so I got off the phone and he ends it with I'll call you tonight. And I would usually answer with a what for? But I guess it doesn't matter what the reason is. Friends can call for whatever reason for all I care. But I don't call for no reason and most guys don't do anything for no reason because they don't waste time (especially this one) and are goal objective oriented. Who knows and who cares. Best of us can find happiness in misserie. I don't care what you think. But at least I got the answer I expected. I'll let sim know when to come get me tomorrow. It's not too late tomorrow and we'll see how much I can get done. I got the crapy paper due. I would get back at 10 or at least close to it. Oh great the arsehole closes the window now I'm going to freeze to death. Shinae can punch out an 6 page essay and get an A and why can't I? It's rediculous why I can't do as well no more. Why WHY why. The new KCLD player is really cool. I'm not sure what silverlight is, but I like it. It's pretty and has some sparkle and flair to it.