Love Yourself

Jimin is just great. Been waiting for their new songs for awhile. Not sure if was going to like this song as it was a ballad. Didn't even start on any of the class items for the semester.  It really is going to be hell on wheels for the rest of the year. Hopefully tomorrow will be fairly slow that can get a few things prepped for class. Not sure how will get any of the side studying done. Only got a month to churn it all out. Swore it was 3pm just a moment ago.

Really with all the clutter really can't have nice things or get anything. Not really interested in experiences though it seems to be the things gotta share with others to be more interesting. Really not interested in experiences anything at the moment to share with anyone. No one else seems interested in eating anything so why wait for anyone else feels like doing something before am allowed to do anything. Part of is just waiting for school to start so can avoid it all. Really can't hang around in st. paul but can linger around msp. Less focus on others things and more on your own. Can't expect anything from others if can't expect it yourself. Doesn't matter who saids what. Gotta have some grit. Things can disappear. Don't need permission. Your opinion doesn't matter. Free yourself from yourself.

Still struggling with the why long for something can not have, yet to have grit and to pursue what it is that is desired and to not be detoured. To not desire what can not be obtained or to stick to what is determined to have? At what point is there is one to stop or go another direction? Stick to it regardless? doesn't mean it can't be put down for awhile to pursue other activities. That darn tree frog was like a sign. Didn't really think would see one. Think had imagined it at one time or another. But didn't think would encounter one. Really can't recall the last time ran into one.