INspire

It is truely better off on your own. No need for more room. Was doing fine earlier this week. But since yesterday and this morning, I am feeling distressed. It would be worry on another aspect. But this can't be helping either.

~Doggie~
Got back on Thur and was feeling slightly motivated, but was short lived. So brought Boris back. Didn't realize should have put down both seats because was getting fluf all over the place. And poor thing was so scared of getting in the back. Else stuck head out the window and let the wind blow in his face. It was like a scene from Bolt. Was hessitant to let him do that. There's always the fear he just might decide to leap out. We had a hard time getting him to sit, but finally got him to sit when he sliped in the back. Got doggie slober all over the window. Else he's a good dog to walk. Sure is attached to his blankie.

The last night before we left for some reason he cried. I didn't know what the reason was. I did all I can, but to no a due. It turns out like Barb saids, he's a big baby. Has attachment issues. (or I can't think of the word for it right now) Steph can to visit Boris and thought he was cute and took some pictures.

~Bling~
Steph finally got engaged or at least got a ring. Who knows if it means anything at all if anything. I didn't expect so many blings, enough to all up to a certain number. Else it's nice, as long as she likes it. Went to visit pigeon and steph and watch sim and pigeon play game. Nubin pigeon somehow got himself banned for killing too fast. Wasn't really too excited about going (but then again since when was I all gun hoe in going anywhere) but did pick up some cloths and on the way try to do the recording, but the recorder was going all wacko.

~Droping Flys~
Last week the stares really have been droping like flys. You got Wacko Jacko, Ferria Fassut, Sham Wow dude, and so on. It's a thought that has crossed my mind how stares burn out. Many will in my life time (not like it's going to be that long).

~Letting Go~
I know someone is tired and so am I. But at least someone finally showed around after 2 days. But I think I rather leave it off still. I try to make aolie today. It doesn't look too bad. Think I put too much on the first time. (Got a little too excited) But I am so tired, so lets get some rest bit first.

Calculon

More shiet to put under the mango tree.

I knew with the calculator I needed to stay away from before I find too much to like. Way too much. Will always be the fish. Pleasent to watch from a distance, but not so nice to hold. And so Japan. Somehow things have a way of turning out the way I imagined it. But there is something I want to make note of. Yesterday or more like the other day on the phone. It was last Monday, spoke on the phone for a hour. But it wasn't until after I had such a deja vu feeling. I can't recall what specifically it was though right now. But while I was in the shower it hit me. We shall see if anything comes to me later. For now I have a sheet to focus on. Goodluck self, whatever happens can always put under the mango tree.

On the Money

Cake sure looks nice. So yesterday Boris was droped off. Like I expected, he's shy and does his own thing. It will be alright. I guess I been on all day yesterday and to a due nothing. Not bitter really. I mean I am more conceren like in the past once not around and you just trust but it turned out to be something else.

More rantings~
I finally got what was bothering me. Plucked that silly hair out from my arm. Feel much better. Funny how can be on but not around. But it's not like a need, but would like it to be an option. I just want to know so I can move on and not waste time. But I guess you never know if you don't through it. But 2:30pm, 3:30pm?? Is that not nuts? What in God's name would you be doing at that time of day? I know there were mentions of late owl relatives. But still.. It's rather oddish. But whatever is going on it really doesn't matter. At the end of the day, just want you to be happy. Hopefully not at the expense of mine, so I will try to protect myself by letting go and provide nothing but loving kindness.

~Reflections~
There's apart that want to reflect behavior. But is that really the best way? Especailly if you know it's in ill will, but at the same time you protect yourself. Especially if been around all day in a due and you think you can just swoop in and be still waiting there for you? It reminds me of that scene from the chinese show last week with the tree and at the end turns to the one that has always been there.

~Bitterness~
(bet calling/talking to the bf or gf) But either way if it makes you happy then so be it. Doesn't mean I have to take it or at the expense of my own happiness. Because after all, the most important person of all is meself. Can never forget about on self. Do not lose one self. But one this I did lose was that list I had of the things I had to do. What ever happend to them buttet points? But time for class, shall continue this soon. Funny how Barb didn't show up today..

~Brighter Cide~

cHILLIE

Today was really windy and chillie. I not feel well with how the exam with. So much uncertainity. Foget to even check if there were any messages too. I just noticed now there was a derivative exam.. I am so not on top of things right now. I wonder what I will do with myself after all is said and done. I do worry and fear.

Gey

Things were going well today until it pop up again.. so gey. I guess when someone isn't happy, they would want to bring others down with them as well. Each time I think of this, I do this to myself again. Guess there was a hint of jealousy last night. For a second it was on a positive note and then suddnely after knowing some more info, you view changes. You try to make the best decesion and judgement based on what you know. But sometimes what you know is not enough, especially is information is being kept from you to make you think a certain way.

Else today was cool in the morning with a strong breeze. It was like that all day.

Gee Gee Gee Gee

Last night was over at Steph's place till 2am. Watched pigeon play Diablo and I suddenly felt the need to play and jump in as well. But not at this point. But it seemed fun, good memories. But I am reminded by someone I talked to a few days ago that's still on that dragon game. Some people seems to never grow up do they. But yesterday there was a special on Ferria Fauset and her struggles with anal cancer. Made me wonder where she got it and it happens to be from HPV and we went on this whole disgussion with Steph and that's why we were there so late. The idea of it really scared me. Actually made me consider getting the shot for HPV. But after talking about it, I felt a little better about it. But still worry.



Today went to buy the rest of the cards hopefully for someone's graduation? haha. I missed a call about the dog Boris today. Try to remember tomorrow. Else, went to Rainbow and was actually really busy at work. Another interesting topic came up when Moe talked about what to do with her mother after she fell and the bother doesn't seem to want to take care of her. Current plan is to send her to NY where another sister can take care of her.

Overall today wasnt' bad, was able to get 2 packs of my fav choco cover mints. Was actually getting greedy and wanting more than I should, but I resisted temptation and I guess it kind of worked out that way. Bumped into the Girls Generation song on youtube and it's actually kind of catch and all very cute. Speaking of cute, was going through some of moe's magazines and such nice boobage. 6K for new boobs? Else Explorer 8 came out today and to my surprise I like it. Especially how the tabes are color cordinated. I likey. I also like how they highlight the name of the site. Oh and for the first time in a long arse time finally get some bonus minutes! But lets see how long this lasts.

I am having a hard time remembering the name of the show but at first I thought it was a movie, but after some comtimplating, it was a tv series where the guy had an online diary and it always started off with a date and the weather. I wonder why.

Liar

Who's the liar now? It's all miss understanding and miss interperatations for the most part. But you wonder what happened. Maybe it's too different and communication difficulties that make it all the difficult. Well I did say till 2 so I shall wait till then. Watched Transformers today and it was an utter disapointment. It seemed like the same thing over and over again. Else went out to eat and felt all bloated. Took till 1:58. But like the promise I made mayself, I shall not wait. I will not. I need to have more respect for myself and to take care of one self. I was surprised that they had guava flavored lemonaid. ironic today was the lemonaid fair and I didn't get any there, but I knew I wanted to but not at that price. And so later end up going out to eat and getting an even better lemonaid.

But it's strange today how MJ died and Ferria Fauset as well. Makes you think about your own mortality. Anal cancer and cardiac arrest? Scary isn't it? But no matter, lets just go. Get some rest and we shall figure out in the morning.

On a side note, while watching Transformers, how the chick threw herself at him made me thing. Really can't resist tempations especially if it's served to you on a silver platter. And then the thing with Trent and Casandra and how he wants more. And then the strip club story how for a lovely price of $100 you can get head. How scary. The scary things in this world, things you just want to know about.