Gey

Things were going well today until it pop up again.. so gey. I guess when someone isn't happy, they would want to bring others down with them as well. Each time I think of this, I do this to myself again. Guess there was a hint of jealousy last night. For a second it was on a positive note and then suddnely after knowing some more info, you view changes. You try to make the best decesion and judgement based on what you know. But sometimes what you know is not enough, especially is information is being kept from you to make you think a certain way.

Else today was cool in the morning with a strong breeze. It was like that all day.

Gee Gee Gee Gee

Last night was over at Steph's place till 2am. Watched pigeon play Diablo and I suddenly felt the need to play and jump in as well. But not at this point. But it seemed fun, good memories. But I am reminded by someone I talked to a few days ago that's still on that dragon game. Some people seems to never grow up do they. But yesterday there was a special on Ferria Fauset and her struggles with anal cancer. Made me wonder where she got it and it happens to be from HPV and we went on this whole disgussion with Steph and that's why we were there so late. The idea of it really scared me. Actually made me consider getting the shot for HPV. But after talking about it, I felt a little better about it. But still worry.



Today went to buy the rest of the cards hopefully for someone's graduation? haha. I missed a call about the dog Boris today. Try to remember tomorrow. Else, went to Rainbow and was actually really busy at work. Another interesting topic came up when Moe talked about what to do with her mother after she fell and the bother doesn't seem to want to take care of her. Current plan is to send her to NY where another sister can take care of her.

Overall today wasnt' bad, was able to get 2 packs of my fav choco cover mints. Was actually getting greedy and wanting more than I should, but I resisted temptation and I guess it kind of worked out that way. Bumped into the Girls Generation song on youtube and it's actually kind of catch and all very cute. Speaking of cute, was going through some of moe's magazines and such nice boobage. 6K for new boobs? Else Explorer 8 came out today and to my surprise I like it. Especially how the tabes are color cordinated. I likey. I also like how they highlight the name of the site. Oh and for the first time in a long arse time finally get some bonus minutes! But lets see how long this lasts.

I am having a hard time remembering the name of the show but at first I thought it was a movie, but after some comtimplating, it was a tv series where the guy had an online diary and it always started off with a date and the weather. I wonder why.

Liar

Who's the liar now? It's all miss understanding and miss interperatations for the most part. But you wonder what happened. Maybe it's too different and communication difficulties that make it all the difficult. Well I did say till 2 so I shall wait till then. Watched Transformers today and it was an utter disapointment. It seemed like the same thing over and over again. Else went out to eat and felt all bloated. Took till 1:58. But like the promise I made mayself, I shall not wait. I will not. I need to have more respect for myself and to take care of one self. I was surprised that they had guava flavored lemonaid. ironic today was the lemonaid fair and I didn't get any there, but I knew I wanted to but not at that price. And so later end up going out to eat and getting an even better lemonaid.

But it's strange today how MJ died and Ferria Fauset as well. Makes you think about your own mortality. Anal cancer and cardiac arrest? Scary isn't it? But no matter, lets just go. Get some rest and we shall figure out in the morning.

On a side note, while watching Transformers, how the chick threw herself at him made me thing. Really can't resist tempations especially if it's served to you on a silver platter. And then the thing with Trent and Casandra and how he wants more. And then the strip club story how for a lovely price of $100 you can get head. How scary. The scary things in this world, things you just want to know about.

Hot

Today with the sun beating down on us, it was extreamly hot. Today was the Lemonaid Art Fair thing. It was the same as last year. Though I did see a cute fishy bag. But I know I don't need it. Nor would I do anything with it really. Maybe if it was in a different color, but it was cute either way. I need to resist temptations... But it was really cute. Can't resist fish.

It's funny how you think you want something, but then after looking back, it's not really what it seemed.

Excuses

Do I really beleive? Since when does like to sleep so much? Well true email was not checked, but there could albe other reasons for that as well. That's even more rediculious that would get up to go on a date and not. Guess it's meant to be like this.

But besides more diapointment from the only source of it and this isn't fun anyways. It's not that I miss or anything, I just don't like this. Reminds me of something bitter. But lets not dwell on that. I still have douts and hold reservations on it so I shall not make the same mistake as I did before. I will not think like that. I will not disapoint myself like that again. I will not put myself through it again. I will not be like before. It really has been a long time since I have blogged because I was happy or excited about something. Seems like more often than before I seem down or more dispointed over something... Why am I so gloomy? Such an Eeyore when I once was a Pooh. It's time to be more Pooh like.

Warm

Today is not bad, had some jello and I thought I wanted ice cream, but I wasn't sure. Then I run into this image and it really made up my mind especially at the same time ice cream appears on tv. It's strange today how is not around. Makes me wonder... But good thing America's Got Talent was on to keep me distracted long enough, else I would have been screwed. Thank the the Lord. It was also nice talking to Todos today. Things are not as bad as they seem. But we shall see. Still have some problems to do among other things I need to get organized. Right after Conan.

So I find it strange how my nails are cracking, just like me. I need to take better care and be more pacient. Today ran into Miguel on facebook, so handsome. Who knew a fat MG could look like that. For some reason I always imagined him to be more childish and cute than so handsome. Either way, not like I can do a thing about it. Will try to get an early start on things tomorrow. Goodnight.

Stories

I guess been busy, but I guess it all depends on if there's a story to it or not. I guess it was nice to be able to finally talk for a bit. The heat sure isn't helping today. Wonder when they coming to get the pup? Not like she's bothering me or anything, but I am still ancious. I don't work well this way. I shall continue this in a bit after I find a way to cool down. It's also a funny thing how pops on and off. I know the net isn't very well and sure plenty of things need to be done and people to talk to. Try to be understanding.

I am really way too ancious to do anything. Is it because I worry it be at 10 and that's what I get? Does it really take that long to drive up here? Really am too warm and bloated. It's funny watching Sadie play with her werid little red tube thing. Funny how she can amuse herself so well.

And there she goes. Been set free for a bit. Will miss the pup. I just noticed, it's funny how I am cracking, just like my nails. I really need to toss that stuff, but it gives it character slightly.
Don't assume anything, for there are things you don't realize.