Eye

Eye is a hurting this evening. I recalled something ah moe said about something growing in her eye and she popped it. I noticed I had something like a white ball growing, but wasn't sure what it was. But today I decided to take it out. And I did. And it stings. Hopefully it will be alright. Can't say this is very comfortable, but I am hoping I could get this done sooner.

Today I looked up Asher on facebook and noodle as well. It feels somewhat comfortable in times of stressing and uncertainty. But it's a nice thing where the focus is not always on me or about me. Once in awhile it's nice to focus on something else. It really is.

There's always another day.

I feel his pain. He really has been stressing on the while marriage situation. I hope it get better for him and they will find peace. I still feel bad for myself. But I don't want to think about myself for now. I want to put that baggage down. It gets heavy and makes me tired.

Take a fresh look at your career situation. Emotions point to change.

Of the past week, I have been stressing. Really stressing. I don't know how to sit better. I am not eating well and as a result I am losing weight which really ticks me off. I was glad earlier that I was bleeding, but I think because of my diet, I was not bleeding well. So while I work on this, I am listing to relationships and take notes. The past likes to get in the way doesn't it? It has a way of getting to me.

~How you relate to people~
You should only think of US.
It's what we share between us
What we see in another person, is what grows in them, what we expect?
No fear or control, put peace, kindness, forgiveness, love and respect
Look at people with kindness and respect..
We make thing happen, no relation is meant to be
What we water, grows
What you see in another is what grows
What you make of them is what makes a tasty cake



Daily Planetary Overview
Mercury quincunx Mars today may bring a restless mentality and the tendency to argue. You'll have to watch your temper and bite your tongue. You may express an opinion without thinking about the consequences, and have a lack of tact and diplomacy.

Your Horoscope - Today, Jan. 25, 2010

A surprise in the department of love and romance is on its way to you, Melly. Things are coming around full circle, and the investments you made in this realm of your life are finally paying off. Something new is cropping up, but in reality, this is a result of things you set in motion long ago. Be open to embrace the tremendous flow of love and beauty that are coming your way.

All this sounds nice. I really do hope for.

Dreams and Other Things

I had a dream today or was it more like last night. I am not sure what it was related to, but I think it may have something to do with the tutorial last night in the calling center. It sure is cold down here, but I am hoping I can get more done today.

Save me, I'm lost, oh Lord, I have been waiting for you.
Save me from being confused.
Show me what I'm looking for.
Please, I'll be strong.

Holes in the Wall

That's all I could see..

Life Unexpected

~Taro Taro~
There's an element of contradiction in your love life today, Melly! The influence of the Emperor and the High Priestess is making you more critical, and this is putting distance between you and other people. You just can't stop yourself from challenging everyone's ideas and habits. It's making you cranky and dictatorial, so if you're not careful you'll be getting on your partner's nerves - or those of a potential new lover! A word of advice: stay away from heated discussions. Your attitude at work seems to be lacking in flexibility. And the Tower and the Emperor aren't assisting in the spirit of cooperation either. You are so convinced you're right that you're acting like a bulldozer, without worrying who you run over in the process. Since your colleagues aren't in the mood to give way, you're in for some strained relations and harsh words.

Today overall started off well for the most part and then it went for a slump during the early evening from not finding the nuts I was looking for to dealing with more criticisms. But it's not like they don't have a point. I know priorities. It's not like I can compete. So I got to learn to deal with it. Does it seem fair? Nothing seems to be enough. What is enough? Like anyone would be acceptable. Can it be worse? How much can I take?

~Life After You~
I finally recalled this song and added to the list. No one ever said there was no life afterwards, it's just a different one. One ending and another one starting. It has been awhile death has crossed my mind. It's nothing that I want to linger on for too long. It gets a bit depressing and scary. Not sure what to do. But I got other things to deal with now. If I can't get one thing done, then I should work on another till the time is right for the other. It all needs to be done anyways in which ever order. Though ideally I had an specific order, but things don't seem to turn out the way I want or plan.

All I am after is a life full of laughter..

~Progress, or more like lack of it~
I am trying to fill out the MFPP forms, but I can't seem to email and get answers. Hopefully if they are no included, it will surely save me a lot more forms to fill out. But either way, I want things to be fair. I will try to send it out again soon and I got calls to make.

And that was the worst assessment ever. I couldn't even make an appointment. Fail.

It's funny how no one is speaking today. Not sure what is going on. It could be the lather. I am just tired. But I need to get my arse up tomorrow morning. If I can get this, I will find a way to make this work. Not sure what the Lord wants from me these days. I seem to be lost more or less. Hopefully I will find my way soon..

Chasing Perfection

They want you to know the best version of themselves

Today so many things have been running through my head. There are old habits that keep creeping up. It makes me want to turn back to them such as..

• Working Out
  
• Crunchyroll
• Livejournal
• Doing things now rather than later..

Not sure why can't seem to get much done now days..

Hurt

~Dreams~
So I wasn't able to get up when I actually wanted to. I did have a dream though. Something a call and was going to meet at like some cave. It was something like from Ridick the tunnels with the worms or grubs. So I get this call and so I arrive. Think it was after class or something and no one was there. Thought they started already but was not sure. But I noticed the cousin's backpack on the ground in the corner, but now that I think back, I knew it was backpack, but for some reason I thought it was cousins. So I decide to try to catch up with them and start crawling. But I run into a giant wormy grub thing. I later get a call but not sure why I didn't pick up or couldn't. So after being scared, I get back home only to see snuggling with cousin in bed. I am not sure if I was mad or shocked. I then woke up.

This is another one of them paragraphs that I looked over:

I am an international student from Macau, China. I have received a few scholarships from SCSU which have helped me a lot in achieving my goals. With the scholarships, I am able to work less and concentrate more on my education. The extra time scholarships have given me has given me opportunities to participate in different student organizations and University-wide committees. These experiences have given me the opportunities to explore more interests which have lead to the development of my interest in the student counseling graduate program. Scholarships have played an important role in my college career and has helped me find my own interests.

~Using Musing~