So Lovely

Maybe a chrono version of that one would be best.  I shall keep looking.  The issue I guess is that I do not know what I want.  Brand vs color vs cost vs use us coolness.  Really no idea, guess can be happy with any.  Maybe I do need to look for a purple one with numbers.  Oh well, it's just more research.  It's sure nice.  I already have one in theory.  I also don't need one, but I think I would be okay with anything.  I like them all, the picts online really don't do them justice. 

So lately I have been worried about a shift in duties.  Not sure if I will understand it or even enjoy it.  I don't like begin stuck on a problem.  I worry even more even if I ask someone, still don't understand and still stuck and the realization that you are just stupid.  No one can explain it to you so you can understand because you just understand.  I have been trying to look the part.  Trying to make myself believe in it first.  Think that's half the battle. 

Breaking Point

Been having a few moments of discomfort.  Like being pinged by small needles, so how much of it you can take before you move.  I don't know if I have made it to that point yet.  Maybe this whole blog this isn't such a bad idea.  Just keeping it incognito.  I want to some extend to work on one thing at a time.  The whole house thing is really throwing a kink in things.  I feel itchy like always getting bitten by bugs sucking the life out of me.  DO I move or slap it?  No one seems to be on the same page on the house.  I want to just throw the while book in the fire.  Always saying you young people don't know anything and how you think everything is so easy.  I just want to do something about it.  I don't have a lot of time now.  I just need to do what I can.  Always looking for where my next meal may come from.  At least I got some idea buzzing around with selling grass among other things.  Lets not dwell on the things that bother you and do the things you want to for a moment....

I left my lime green post it note at work this time.  I was going to say again, but it's a different place this time.  See if I remember it tomorrow.  Sitting and typing is such a pain.  There has to be a better way to do this.  It's just not working.  I like my layout, but at the same time I want to change the image and keep the words.  I itch, yet see nothing.  Wonder if they are ghost blood suckers?

Rough

Guess I some how find myself hear again. Looking back it's like I do not recognize myself. At a cross roads again. It's not just a fork in the road but more of a disillusion. Things have changed, not sure if for the worse or better. Things are different now. And so I have to change myself. Something needs to be done. I can feel it. It's like suddenly all these signs and little things are starting to make me to really think about it. To take serious and deep considerations. Feeling as though I am observing things happening around me and like a yu-gi-oh match, it's your move. Almost like pressure was building up for this moment. I need some direction. Things are so different since I was hear and I still find my way back. Thinking back to things that were. Can things once lost still be found? What prompted this was a single post on FB about a distance acquaintance of work and 11 credits of law school. Things may not be what you make think. You only know what you can know. 

Let me think, let me start over.  Let me begin again.

FML

At times that's just what I want to say about it. A lesson from.

What's Going On?

Love: The Judgement

Touchstone: The Empress

Career: The Lovers

Everything moves very fast today, mel! Your communication skills are boosted by the combined influence of the Empress and Judgment, allowing you to hold forth with ease in front of a crowd. As a result, your vivacity and spontaneous air inspire a few imitators. People admire you and seek out your company. Your popularity could attract the attention of someone highly desirable… Go for it! In the professional sphere, you feel the strong desire to take some time to think before taking any action. It is typical of the Lovers to put a sprinkling of doubt on everything you do – or don’t do. Luckily, the Empress opens up the channels of communication and dialogue with the people around you. This at least helps you unblock certain situations where otherwise you have a tendency to simply withdraw into a quiet corner, and not say anything...

Today was more of a get it done lets get it over with kind of thing. Yesterday watched a thing about dying. Like a ghost haunting you. Thought about making this public, but for what reason? Do I need others input? Maybe better not or be considered sainess.

The Call

Daily Planetary Overview
Mind reader that you are, you grab hold of something, give it your undivided attention, and build upon it under an inspiring Mars/Neptune trine. Tonight's Libra Moon makes it easy to express the finer feelings of love's young dream. You and someone special may take leap of faith.

Your Horoscope - Today, August 3, 2011
Attempt to contact others in different states or foreign countries today could go awry, mel, as technological marvels that we tend to take for granted such as telephones and the Internet could go awry, perhaps due to solar flares. There isn't much point in making yourself crazy, as this is beyond human control. The only thing you can do is wait! In the meantime, do something else that you love to do.

Internets wasn't working very well and yet the phone suddenly rings. With whatw e call not the greatest news, but more interesting news. Not a good time, only if earlier or later. But at this moment, we hang in the balance. Where were you a few months ago? Is it like going back to a bad bf? Not there for you when you need, but calls you back when they feel like it. The time together is wonderious and never lasts. Is it worth it? Do I need or want a stone or a tree? Think there are a lot of things I do not know yet.

Not sure if it makes much or any difference. It all seems the same to me. Here in pain, but you go at your own pace. Not much nagging or pecking. But at either one, don't really feel like I'm learning anything or being productive. Here I guess there's more dinkering. Too many eyes over there and harder to get away. At first was excited, but now I have mellowed out and just seem disatisfied about everything.

What I like even more is how you don't have time to say get some work done but time to mingle in the corner.

Cr@ptacular

Daily Planetary Overview
It's Mercury retrograde time again, when the planet attempts to retool thinking and communication processes. The optimum use? A second (or third) review of documents reveals flaws before - not after - the fact. Tonight explore previously hidden meanings when you replay your words in your mind.

Your Horoscope - Today, August 2, 2011
Your internal fire may be feeling a bit smothered by a fierce reality check today, mel. Give people the benefit of the doubt. They are more perceptive than you may think. In fact, it may behoove you to get some honest feedback today from some people you trust. It may be difficult for you to sort out the truth in your present situation since you are the one caught in the middle of the maelstrom. Consider the perspective of another.