Evil Melly

I can't seem to get this to be big enough. Anyways, I can't seem to get enough done in a day and take too much time dwelling on things.

Bumbed

Now I am depressed again. It's the first day of May and it's snowing. And that's not really the cause of the bad part, but it's the carmal corn from walgreens was not very tasty and some of the dry apple pieces were bitter as well. Not a good day for snacks. Just seem like not a good day for anything. Seems like can't have a day where nothing goes wrong. And now miss a holiday code. What's more frustraiting is that right now I can't see how they are over paid if they are to be paid ot anyways. So that's what's really urking me. In my mind it would be the same. I get back to the old habbit of looking at the clock and making a judgement that there's not enough time for anything and do nothing. But I can't let this or rejection get me down. As it's their goal to stall you. I told you that I did not like the u and there was a reason for it. The reason appears again. More reason to dissaprove of them. I just feel like I can't do anything right now. How to fix this? Let me ponder and regain my focus...

Change

Stupid Robbins

Tip of the Day: If you think about it, when someone seems to take a long time to change, has it really taken that long to change—or just that long to get to the point where change is a must? To create change quickly, the first belief you must adopt is that you can change virtually anything now.

Stupid Robbins

Tip of the Day: Many people don't believe they can make a change merely because previous attempts have failed. Or they think change has to be a long, painful process; if not, they argue, then why haven't they changed already? Furthermore, if you resolve a problem you've been dealing with for years in a matter of minutes, you have to face your friends and family: they might ask, "If it was that easy, why did we waste time worrying about you?" With all these negative "incentives," we've learned to take a long time so people can "appreciate" our change.




Shake off this cultural hypnosis and realize that new actions will produce new results now.

What's Your Secret?

Hi Tiffany!



As far as advice, I would generally just tell you a few things that worked for me. Here's a list off the top of my head.1. Work like a mutherf**ker. Seriously. Most people are so lazy,

they do just enough work not to get fired and not a bit more. If you

work hard, you'll be head and shoulders above 90% of the lazy asses out

there.



2. Have good ethics. I remember I did a speech to college kids about this last fall. I don't know you well, but I'm sure you have good ethics. I fired two interns a couple of months ago because I asked them to go the ATM to get money so I could buy everyone breakfast. They actually checked my account balance at the ATM and I found out and fired them both. One said, "Don't I get one mistake?" And I said, "A mistake is playing the wrong commericial or spilling water on the computer. Checking my balance wasn't a mistake, it was deliberate." Okay, you get the point.



3. Help other people get what THEY want. If people know you'll make them look good, they'll love you for it.



4. Believe that you're good enough and you deserve to do well. For years and years, I put up with being treated

like crap because I didn't really think I was good enough to be treated any differently. Believe that you deserve the best. (of course, you have to have evidence that you deserve the best, not just a sense of entitlement!)



5. Don't stay too long at a job that doesn't promote you or move you up. The old saying is, "Sometimes you have to move out in order to move up." SO true.



6. Take risks. Take that job you're not sure if you're qualified for. Or take that class you're not sure you

can afford. Don't take dumb risks like smoking meth while skydiving! :) And forgive yourself and move on if you fail!



7. Your friends become your luck. If you have great people as friends, you'll have good luck. If you have bad people as friends, you'll have bad luck.





8. Kids are super-expensive and having a kid you can't afford is the first falling domino in a lifetime of being poor. Don't have a baby that you can't pay for all by yourself and don't have a baby with a guy who's never shown any responsibility in other areas of his life.







And last but not least, I'm a BIG fan of Anthony Robbins, the motivational speaker. If you can find one of his books, read it cover to cover or better yet, if you can get one of his audio programs, they're amazing. You listen for an hour or so every day and do the simple project he asks you to do. You can really get focused on what you want your life to be like and you can make it happen! He's really been a huge influence in just about every area of my life!Hope that helps!Dave


You beleive it?

Return to Life

ZOMG

Return to Joy

BS

I feed them NLS pellets, cichlid sticks, omega one cichlid flakes, beefheart, and spirulina brine shrimp.

Oh so adorable, but too late though. Got to keep an eye on the one. Who needs a dog when you got little orange fishies. But he does seem to feed them better than I do. Some more protein may help. But the who ides of beefhearts? I sapose they are meat eaters.   

You know how kids learn to lie? To advoid punishment. They learn very quickly when they do something bad that something bad is going to follow. Yet we tell them to tell me everything and to tell the truth and yet we are punished when we tell the truth. It's really tell me everything so I know everything about you so I can be informed of your everything. So when we are punished for telling the truth, does it make the truth worth anything? The truth may not be a free pass. But if truth = punishment? How often do we tell the truth? It doesn't seem to have much value anymore now days. It's more should of would of could of. They say punishment is to prevent you from doing it again. Is this control with fear? Fear of punishment. Maybe it's a pattern of fear and resentment of being poor. But I really feel since I have been waekened. So easily hurt, so weak, so easily affected. Just so much dout. Yesterday just looking at the wall of text just made me remember the hurt. Why care. You think care? I think does, but not realizing venting frustration is doing more harm than good. Like killing cancer you kill the good along with the bad. Shouldn't really see it all from just one side. It's not just about me. But it affects me. Any plasn for tonight has been dashed. I get so detured when things like this happens. I don't know what to do besides to become more cold. Don't work very hard, don't play very hard. Nothing seems to motivate me to become more or to desire more. Always worry about wasting other peoples things and seemily to feel it's okay to inconvience myself. But no one seems to be okay with the things I do, no matter how well intension. I sapose if you want someone else to clean up, you have to cleam up yourself first. Maybe everything is a lie. Who can bs better. Who is more cold hearted, who is more thick skinned.

Not sure if I should stick with the same old thing or change it to something else. Or maybe just add on to it. Like an addition. Don't have to choose one or the other. Each has its place and purpose. Can always count on scope to hit it on the head, but it doesn't say how to fix it. Who to talk to, who can I talk to. There doesn't seem to be anyone.

Today, you are too reserved and distant to make any emotional inroads with new people that might enter your life. You are finding it difficult to open up and actually prefer to stay within your own little universe, sheltered from the rest of the world. It’ll be difficult to get you out of this mood, dear mel! The Hermit and the Star in action together are a clear sign of an emotional frustration which forces you into a solitary state.   At work, today is marked by a need to take stock of your position. The association of the Hermit and the Emperor suggests that you should take a little step back to establish your strategy for reinforcing your position and to plan better for the future. With perception and impartiality, your battle plans for your career would do credit to Napoleon. Give yourself a pat on the back!

No one is going to pat me on my back. Maybe I should just lie about everything and not bring up anything that may disturbe the calm on the water. It's just me against the world.