Obsession

Note: Gaining more experiences so u can share them in the future.

So possessed with cloths right now.

Painless

~Trash~
It feels good to be tossing the pants out. I knew I had too many, but some were just hard to let go at the time for some reason. Sure a lot easier to toss today. Maybe had to check the phases of the moon for this kind of stuff. I am still hoping for pain. I am feeling too well. Hopefully be able to find more things to toss in the morning.

Growing Pains

~Bothersome~
I need to constantly remind myself how I can not be bothered with some things. I got my own things to worry about. Each time this time rolls around, it's always this feeling. This worry. It's unwarranted. I do not like it for many reasons. I feel like toss toss toss, toss it all. I hope for it soon. It's the time when I hope for pains. I do hope the discomforts has been for that reason. Else, I will leave things alone. I don't need to or have to deal with everything. Take care of yourself above all.

Daily Planetary Overview

The Sun square Mars today in Fixed Signs will bring out your argumentative and stubborn side. Your temper will flare with little provocation and it will be difficult to control your emotions. You may cause a scene by being overly dramatic.

Your Horoscope - Today, Oct. 29, 2009

Someone who lives near you whom you may not have said much to before may suddenly strike up a conversation with you that could result in a new friendship, Melly. You could find yourself wondering why you didn't speak to this person before. They could share a number of your interests, and because of that, some interesting group activities could be brought to your attention. The only caution: don't push too hard, and don't over-idealize your new friend.

I do hope the temper is because of that time. I really do. But I know I wasn't happy at all when the weekend isn't planned or so uncertain. But aren't most things are like that. The second part about a conservation with someone. It's interesting as on was far and another not quite as far. But to my surprise or not so much, someone was rushing to the alter, hehe. Still as impulsive or maybe more of a romantic still. Hopeful I guess while I am the pessimistic.

Some color does go a long ways.

~Looking Back~
As Iook back, it seems all the more ridiculous and I am reminded how stupid it was all. How stupid. What I put myself through and how in the same way I am doing the same. I want to do more at times. Like today, had a slight inkling of wanting to do this and that. But for now, I am just hoping to get some rest and get an early start on things. Gotta clear out somethings and take out the trash. The more I read, the more I cringe. It's the same with the past and present. Are you better off not knowing? No one really knows. Well on thing is for sure, someone is not writing.

Deception

~Lies~
Makes you wonder what is going on. Seems something so minor and yet from
what I read, it doesn't seem right. This one is not a big deal, but it makes you wonder, what else is there? I don't even want to bother with it. Just knowing is enough. I feel as though is holding something back. Perhaps keeping expectations low of sort. Expecting the worse. But is that not being honest? Not like I am some sort of shinning example. You got your own things to deal with.

~Changing Times~
I guess I haven't really written about this, but it has been something that has crossed my mind. But it could be better off as thoughts and not something to be jotted down. If I did, it sure be a long one. But for now, a small part of a whole. Things change as time passes. Who knew I would even reconsider getting into education after so much time as passed and I have taken so many turns all to look back at the original.

Relations also change. For better or for worse, doesn't have to be. Just different. The situation is always changing. Things can not always be the same. Sure do miss those days. But things are different now. It makes be sad a bit, how I miss it. But it's not all for the wores, but things seem more difficult now days. Seeing the kids and how they don't worry so much about their own issues when you actually think about it, it's actually fairly grim.

Halfway Gone

~Plaid~
Who knew a pair of shoes could drive me insane? Shoes Shoes Shoes. I have always wondered what the addiction was all about. And now I know.. Hopefully the obsesion be over soon. So much to do and not enough time. I need to keep working. There is never really enough time. u can't always wait for enough time to present itself for it will never happen. You just need to seize the moment and take it as it comes.

Disapearing Act

~Sunny~
Today was sunny with a side of traffic. But it was like I knew it would be a pointless trip. It wasn't all bad. But it's never quite the way I want it. Is it ever is? It's like I am anxious. I want to get things done, but I can't do a thing about it. Now this is really getting ridiculousness.

I try to list things out again. I need to clean up my act. I shall try to get some rest first. I need to take care of one self first above all. As without me, there is nothing else. Goodnight self.

Really sure likes to disappear..

Motive

~Business~
I just had an instant of a moment where I had a though that made some sence. It could have been due to watching that movie to see things like a business deal. To have conditions. To what you call enjoy each others company till you are no longer useful. Who knows when it will end. But do live in the moment.