I'm Not Excited about you Either

I guess when I think of some of the complaints I have, I seem to have them myself as well. I don't like it when you do something when I do the same thing. I don't like you it when you don't, but I don't either. But the scary part is I know the reason why I do or don't do it, wonder if it's the same reason as well. It appears to be.

Bad Day

It's never a good thing in spite of all that has been going on, I turn to here. The day was bad and then it got worse. Starts off with errors and then more errors. Then the silly fear of the phone takes over and then I felt the judgment. Like no one is really teaching me anything at this point. Everyone is just doing their own thing, off on their own corner. Fish are still not well, I still am not confident enough to use copper treatment without a tester. Ending up buying a bunch of meds and then forgetting to buy a plant. But then again I should have enough for awhile. Can maybe even try to sell some of them when I get a chance. I figure I would work when is around. I can see why tam didn't like her, I don't really either. Too many question and too invasive. Like you do this you do that? Like telling how you should do it her way because it's more perfect and complete when another saids there's no one way or right way, it's what works best for you. But then again usually has a point. Then worse of all happen, teeth starts to hurt.. omg.. not now. Not ever, The pain.. and I don't have insurance. The stinging pain is all too familar. Not sure if I have been able to get over it in the past. Like Lu saids, when you got no one to turn to, you re the only one at this kind of time. I hope the issue is from a hard tooth brush. Also a pimple in vajay. Haven't had one in a long time. Thought the face would go away and it just appears somewhere else. I should have done better, but then when I try to do better, things get worse. In the past, I was warned about the stains. Then after a year no change so thought was okay. Maybe it has come back to bite me. Please Lord, will try and do my best for you. I don't know how much of this I can take. Please help me. Give me strength, wisdom, and guidance. I also have a mouth sore that I had before. Not sure if it's from the brushing. It's not as bad this time, but still bothersome. I pray for the day to be better in the morning.

Trying Disapointment

Thought I try to catch up on some messages, all to be disappointed that nothing comes back. Thought it would get some things done, in a way it did, but some set backs and disappointments once again. Realizing why I didn't try much before, what I was avoiding before. It's all rather convenient. Seems like I am just digging myself into my own hole or rolling in my dung.

Chok

Work

If not this, then it be something else. There is not a single solution. After you solve on thing, there be another issue. Just the the moment we have a bigger fish to fry. Bigger more smelly one that's taking over at the moment. If that ever goes away, you will notice all the other issues. Things don't seems to get better. Sum tom. I am just really starting to lose more and more feelings. Can I ignore them or let them go? I don't know if I can right now.

My black goldfish is not well. He just sits at the bottom. I do not know what is wrong, I worry it maybe something I did. Yet everyone else is fine. Even the short fat white one which I am surprised. I hope he gets better soon. I also hope I get paid soon. The one good news at least I know I am at least for now a temp to hire. Not sure where this could lead.

In Conclusion: Stupid Liar

And cocks don't lay eggs... But then again it maybe a joke. The whole thing maybe a joke. I am just assuming they are being serious. Maybe not as smart as you think? Or you are not getting the joke. Figure you just got to mind your own business.

They are crazy and they are pushy. Buts they are. Maybe he would make a good recruiter as they are annoying enough. I don't want to be pushed into anything or to be tricked into anything, or should I use the lack of a better term deceived. I should just talk to him and at the same time I don't want to get up. Head was pulsing again.

All this time, I feel I have been deceived. Like I been lied to this whole time. Is it just being polite or just being nice? Or just to mask all the lies. I must have been confused. Deranged. Trying to paint a nice picture. I spend all this time and energy wondering. And in all for nothing.

Lies

They are all lies. They tell you what you want to hear and just lie. When things like that happen, how do you trust? All these things are based on this one thing and when it's no longer there, how do you hold up? You can always choose to accept it. People in this world will take advantage of it. Use you if they can and got something to gain and dump you once you serve no purpose. Useless.