Nagging Decisions

You spend so much time on a choice that may not be available to you.  Convincing yourself that it is the best choice when it's not even an option. Let's not waste time on this and set forth in a new path.

Such lies

I maybe believe it to make myself feel better.  But its not true. Maybe its easier to turn a blind eye. Maybe its more like who can take and dish up bs better. They are just full of it. Who is more full? Just mind myself like theyball do. Focus on yourself as only you can take care of you.

Oh Well

I am starting to feel I have gotten over it. Now it's just more bitternes

Details

What to Call This

Maybe they just realize that there is no chance so like everyone elsw they just ignore me. Oh well. I don't like to be told there is a chance and there is hope when there is none. Why tell me the nice things?  Feel I should not put in much effort as its a waste of time anyways.  Spend so much time thinking of things they don't care about.  False sense of hope based on one persons words. They ate just being nice. 

Working keep working

Pissed Bubble

Here we are again. Teeth been giving me troubles. Blogger has been giving me more troubles. It no longer does that I need it to go no more. Maybe it's time to change. The moble version seems a little better but not by much. 

Seeing the missed calls reminds me of a time I long to forget.  I paid greatly for it. You wonder what happened and you recall what was going on.  It makes you the way you are. I am not who I want to be. I am just tired and losing sight of anything to look forward to.  Kind of feel like this is how it will always be.  What am I going to do? How will I get through this?