Downer

I shouldn't let others get me down, but at the same time not sure what I can do except always be there. Not everything has to do with you. But you can't help but wonder at times. Not really feeling it today. Nor do I really feel it on the other days either. Lets not focus on others so much now and work on yourself. You sure have a thing for telling others to take care of themselves, but not yourself. So lets work on that. I am bummed as well, but lets not let that get the better of me.

That's good enough. I can't worry too much of the details. You know is like saids, not like remmeber anything or care enough to tell me. But most things have a thing for manufesting itself to be something other than it's own. So don't drown yourself in your own suffering. It's not always about me, it's not always about you either. It really has been awhile since diamonds have fallen. Am still trying to let go of things. But I don't want to seem uncaring. So all I can know I can never really give up. It's not really an option. So what can I do?

• I can give a call
• Ask how ill roomy is doing
  

Don't be angry. Don't be resentful. You don't want to add to the plate. Show some care and understanding. It's not always going to be easy. Things sure have a way of not going the way you expect it to. I don't want to add more pressure. I know is doing best. I can only be patient and wait. Only time can tell. No one said it would work out anyways.

I found it interesting yesterday wen talking. Told me I was in for a lot of heartache... I know I put myself in that kind of danger and risk. So I have no one to blame but myself. So I must not be too upset, as long as I tried my best. That's all God can ever ask of me.

I still need to write a note of sort as jerk HR people didn't think it was enough. So I figure I put in some effort to ensure I get it right.

Brushing with Enthusiasm

That's a good one.

Can't Be Bothered

~Why Bother~
For the most part I have not been bothered too much. More or less be lazie about getting things done while feeling that I can't get things done if I can't do it all properly. Sure sucks. So it's the afternoon now. It's really nice and sunny out to my amusement. For most of the week, I didn't give into any of the urgers to peep, but today I did. It was to be expected more or less according to the calender. Else, I have been pretty good at it. But this way of thinking of living in the moment and having fun makes me want to not try as much. Like if things are not going well, I just turn away from it. I don't really want to do that, yet I don't want to cause myself any kind harm or put myself in harm's way.

~Itchys~
I have these red spots all over me. They are really making me itchy. It could be due to dryness or something else. I worry. You live life only seeing things for your own view. And wonder why things happen to me, when it happens to more people than you can comprehend.

Don't Care

Zombieland

Is it really?

Daily Planetary Overview - Mercury will be opposite Mars today, and there will be a New Moon in Aquarius. You'll feel strongly independent and won't hesitate to voice your opinions. You'll engage in debates and will probably come out on the winning side.

Your Horoscope - Today, Feb. 13, 2010

A passionate letter or phone call from a romantic partner could have you longing for his company, Melly, and so you're likely to make a night of it this evening. You're both feeling happy, glowing in each other's company. One or both of you will have career successes to report; relations with coworkers and superiors alike should be cooperative and congenial today, and this works well for your future. Enjoy.

Tarot reading for Melly:

Love: The Hanged Man

Touchstone: The Lovers

Career: The Star

In terms of your personal life, the vacillation of those around you is getting to you today, dear Melly. The Lovers hold sway in the emotional sphere today, revealing hesitant and somewhat fickle behavior on the part of your nearest and dearest. All this is very unsettling for you, to the point that where certain people are concerned, you feel as if you’re getting nowhere, as neither of you has faith in the other. A word of advice: ignore your doubts and try to communicate. In the professional sphere, you feel a mounting sense of frustration. There is still no end in sight for on-going negotiations, your projects are stalling, and you have the unpleasant feeling of being totally at the mercy of your superiors to get anything done. Try not to brood and see everything from the dark side (the Lovers), but instead exploit the powers of your imagination (the Star) in order to come up with an idea that will enthuse the people who are currently plotting against you.

Expectations

It's not just me now, but others. Today one was stressing out. More than usual. Not sure if I am the one to comfort as I myself am trying to let such things go. It really depends on how you see things and if you are consistent. I myself am in no mood or in the position to help or to listen. I got my own things to work on and to deal with.

A Woman Scorned

Lets try to get somethings done. Not like I could not for see what could happen. So lets try my best to get through the day. One day at a time..